"Living Each Single Day"

Hello... Im feeling a bit lost now. I dont know. Maybe because I have an unfinished business which is designing my new blog layout in my laptop which my brother is using so Im stuck at the computer surfing..IF..you call what I am doing now as surfing. Oh, and I read the news about Saddam Hussein who was executed on the eve of Hari Raya Haji. I don't want to comment much about this historical event but to me, no matter how powerful you are, now matter how many people you have killed, justice will find its way around even if it takes more than a decade. The fact that he was depicted as a killer without any mercy in his hands as justified in the killings back then in 1982, will remain as so even after his death. It will be remembered forever and when you die, it is not the end of the journey for you as you lead your life in an alternate world and it is there where you will be facing the most severe punishment of all..the punishment from God. In this world, we're just a human being...

If you have an option to start anew or carry on to repair or salvage your marriage, what will you do? My workplace has a majority of female workers and especially my department because we have to deal with kids. The only men are the executives but don't even go near them. They're gays. Im not against gays but Im SO against them. Anyway, Im not gonna talk about them. Im sure you've heard so many times that marriage is not an easy thing. Most of my colleagues are either married or about to marry and there is also a very small minority who are newly divorced with the exception of one whose late husband passed away due to cancer. I...I don't know what to say when I heard through the grapevines that these women had just gone through divorce or are having marriage problems that there is a high possibility that they may soon file for divorce. When you look at these women, they are not ugly and infact, one of them is quite a stunner with her high self esteem and her small lithe...

So I didn't see him come round the pantry. At least, give me some satisfaction..something to smile and think about leh...hrmph. Okay, so I SHOULD NOT have viewed lunch in that manner like 'woopee..the most exciting day at work right now is lunch..' because what did I get? A bad lunch! That's not quite appropriate. A horrible lunch! heh.. Okay, what could possibly go wrong? I took the wrong packet of food. Stupid cashier..only knows how to handle the money but don't have the decency to at least pass me my packet of food. There were two packets there and since she didn't hand me my food, I just took the one which I thought was the right one. Apparently, I was wrong. Man, and I was so happy over my choice of dishes because being in this..yawns..workplace..you have to endure the food here which seriously lacks taste. They're also stingy with gravy and you have to ask for gravy unless you want your dishes to be super dry, Oh well. Anyway, what did I end up with? ...

hello, an early new year's day greeting to you. that didn't quite sound rite...i'll do it again come the actual day. im dead bored. it's not that i ain't doing anything right now at work but im still dead bored. I just finished doing the minutes or the report writing for yesterday's meeting...probably in the fastest time ever in the history of my department. I appreciate work given to me as wrong as that sounds because it is better than doing nothing but I don't like to drag work here except sometimes, I have no choice. But that minutes is a killer so that one..gotta go! So, they had to ask me to write minutes with a heck lot of updates and details and I was writing furiously as they spoke because I did not want to miss out on the important things and be blamed for not listening intently enough. Whatever. It's out of my system now and I think I might have just increased my lens degrees. I walked the lane to the toilet twice on purpose to take a short br...

My last entry was about love and coincidentally, some things happened around me concerning love. Heh, for myself it's puppy love...and even though to me, he looked like an ex army guy with a tall lean physique of a runner and a tanned skin from long exposure to running in the sun, he has this charm that I reckon only I feel it. YAH....nobody feels the lurRrve around him. It's like my colleagues don't even notice his existence until I point it out like 'ok people! silence...my crush is here..' in Malay but I think the uhm..hush hush sudden quietness a few times in the pantry (apparently, i notice that he doesn't eat out) may have just caught his notice like 'eh?' because we were quite a chatty bunch prior to that...kekeke. I think it may be too obvious till I caught him looking at me in two instances like he suspected that I have this bit of interest in him and I don't know if he is returning the favour or what. Like just now, as I walking from the ca...

hello, lifes dreary as usual at the office. but it's okay. I am actually almost done with my 'time management' presentation which I have kept to a minimum before I bore anyone, and erm..more importantly..myself..hehe. Yes, I do get bored by my own antics. Anyway, yet another quick update since Im at work and Im only blogging using my email account because I like the smoothness of the keyboard besides making me look like Im busy. Im actually rather tired because I rewatched Love Actually. Hrm, why this sudden romantic mood despite my self declare that Im SO not a romantic girl. Honestly, Im not one who is so darn romantic but im not totaly 'off' the idea. It's just that I like romance in its most unusual ways. Okay, I don't mean some guy and a dirty old rug but romance between two people in the most unexpected situations. But through the movie too, I learn that love doesn't necessarily equate to romance. It can also mean love between friends, love between...

Hello... I just try to do a quick update because I don't think I want to spend too much time on it since last Saturday, I did a few entries. Hrm, I just wanted to touch upon how I seem to be visited by my past, which isn't totally a bad thing, unlike some guy with a hook a.k.a the 'I STILL know what you did last summer' freak. Btw, would you believe that there is a THIRD part to it which is 'I ALWAYS know what you did last summer'. Point being..who bloody well cares already?! Jennifer Love Hewitt moved on too. The thing is, sometimes...some parts of my past are better left alone in their pitholes wherever they are because I don't like to be disturbed no more. Don't get me wrong now. I still am in touch with people who have formed part of my past and also my present in case you're wondering if Im some snobbish ungrateful tart who throw away her old friends and make new ones ala Paris Hilton. It's just that....uhm......how do I explain this nicely....

I read last Tuesday's news on the Home section with a heavy heart. How ever sad the news was, it was indeed real that our teenagers need to truly see how loved they are by their parents. By making their parents repeatedly sad and worried over their well beings due to their havoc behaviour, it will only be of no use to the teenagers themselves if one day, a cruel twist of fate comes aknocking on their door. Of course, to these teenagers, their sort of behaviour is not seen as havoc because for all they know, who gives a damn about their lifestyle. But why carry on living that sort of lifestyle if it is going to hurt the very people who give them shelter, food, clothings and most importantly, love...and all these are of zero value because they don't expect us to pay them back every single cent. It is our obligation to give them money once we start working and not complain about it because we must remember that they have spent so much money on us because all this while they have n...

Recently, me and family (but always minus the father) made a trip to causeway point to meet my aunt and her daughter. Had been a long while since I last met them. She, as usual, talking to my mum about her wanting to try out business adventures and then in between, she would indirectly tried to 'sound' her for money in Ks, mind you, as initial funding and please lah, we don't PRINT money. She knows about my hard budgeting skill and my recent bonus, but nope..I told my mum to never ever given in to her stupid demands because if she wants money so much, get a real job lah! And in turn, my mum advised me the same thing as well in case she tries to call me and sound me as well. Well, after so many times of advising my mum to not provide my aunt with any more fundings by giving in easily to her financially, she has finally woken up to reality. My mum always find herself being left with no phone calls whenever my aunt was a bit stable financially and then if she runs out of money...

Hello... back to blogging again. okay, so i have been diagnosed by the suave doctor for having acute gastric pains that don't allow me to even sit down without feeling like falling back down on to my mattress. Hard. Even lying down on the bed didn't give me adequate rests after falling asleep a few times initially in the earlier part of the day after the visit to the doctor. It was pain, pain, pain all the way for me and when the tummyache was starting to subside by gradually concentrating on my lower abs, it was a tumultuous affair for me as well. I was wriggling in pain and every movement I made didn't give me a single sense of comfort at all until at one point, I realised that perhaps my shivering didn't make me fall asleep to so-called get rid of the pain temporarily. I knew that the quickest way for me to sleep was to wrap myself in my towel and that did the trick. I was fast asleep and awoken once coz my brother was making a bit of noise while talking to my mum. A...

Bloated. I just discovered the ACTUAL cause of my stomachache + bloatedness. No, it's not the frapuccino that I was complaining about. It was the darn chili sauce that had way too much vinegar added into it. My mum just highlighted that to me because it was the very cause of my previous stomachache which did not linger on and on like this one but it had around the same nauseating impact on me which I had on Friday. I don't know which one was worse because they were both as bad but the second one has lingering effects till now as Im typing this out. OOooorrff....pain sia..Morning I would be okay and my tummy will look like usual but the minute I put food into it, that's it. The bloatedness will come in gradual forms till it's inflated and breathing/sucking in/sucking out is difficult. It feels like someone puts a rubber band round my waist and I can't do much about it because basically it stays in that shape or I'll risk breaking the rubber band but at the same t...

Hello...this is me, wasting time. Well, im just chilling out a bit after our second trip at Vivocity and it is raining outside from just now. Looks like we have more water to drink from the reservoir later. Good, coz I can be so thirsty at times. My brother wanted to see the er..sky pool..i think, the one where you can the fountains flat down and kids can play in the water. He saw it in the tv and he wanted to see it but unfortunately, it was raining outside when we came and we could only view the beautiful exterior from behind the glass panels. After doing a fair bit of shopping the last week after getting my bonus, I had already made up my mind long time ago to not get any stuffs except from the Candy Empire coz I love the dark chocolate with macademia and the chocolate nougats. I knew that it would be more than the ten dollars I spent the other time during our 'experimental' stage. Now that we know how tasty the chocolates are, I wouldn't mind spending a little bit more ...

Haha..I don't have to do data entries today and furthermore, Im on half day..wahoo!!! Tiring you know, keying all those freakin' data and even though I do enjoy utilising the office pc rather than helping out in other areas, at some point in time, my eyes can hardly open. Anyway, since there is no field duties to perform or satellite clinics duties to perform either, Im practically stuck here in office awaiting for instructions on what other duties we are required to help or I would just have to stick with data entries again. Right now, they didn't ask me to help them in anything so I plonked myself down infront of the pc and trying...yes...trying to do a draft article for presentation later on something related to work. At first, me and a colleague were discussing and we had some random thoughts such as proper usage of contact lens and even LASIK surgery which i s actually a ten minute painless laser surgery that lets you have perfect vision eliminating the use of spectacl...

hello! oh dear, this week Im pretty jam packed with activities and most of the time, it is just doing a bit of catching up with my friends who suddenly become free around the same time..haha. Well, it's okay then. I just hope that my mum doesn't scream her head off at me but this coming Saturday, confirmed Im keeping it free. Like the malay saying goes 'jaga hati mak aku..' kekeke...that means, to please my mum. In case you're wondering if rahayu has reached popularity status among her friends, hell no! Just that it is something that I feel that I must perform as my duty and being a friend is not easy. But alas, if ONLY my mum understands that. Gawd..I haven't started dating! If like this, tsk..I'd rather die a single if going out with a friend is considered a crime. Anyway, I know I sound like I complain a lot and take things for granted if you count me lamenting about my mum's neverending nagging sessions are an 'earful' to bear. Look, I do lov...

Gosh..yesterday was a total nagfest for my mum as she just could not stop nagging over every single thing especially when she knew that I would be going out. I had already given her two days advanced notice that I would be going out with a friend but it still went downhill from there. She asked why I kept making appointment with my friends and that there were things at home that I could settle like vacuuming and I told her that I would do that before meeting my friend. I could have backed out but I had promised her two weeks ago because the last time she asked me, it was for that very day itself and I had made a date with another friend. I thought she would forget lah since it would be two weeks later of which she did mention at first, there is no way for me to back out since she had already given me two weeks' notice in advance. That was until yesterday when she reminded me that hey, did I still remember our plan for Saturday? And I didn't know how to break this news gently ex...

Well...it had been a good week but a tiring one too. So tiring that when I went to the gym, I could feel the soreness in my legs 5 minutes into the cross trainer thingey! And come to think of it, eh..didn't I go to the gym last week but it felt as if I didn't go for the longest while. Oh yes, been doing some catching up with a friend of mine which I had blogged about not too long ago and apparently, she had LOTs of things to tell me..haha. We practically walked from Raffles Place to Dhoby Gaut and on to Orchard Road after our usual hang out at TCC. I had my usual oreo thingey but this time instead of oreo milkshake, I had oreo frappucino. Delicious! The only problem was that...uhm...I forgot I can't take frappucino. That is lesson number one. It gave me stomach ache right till yesterday and my tummy felt SoooOoo uneasy. On that night at around 11, I missed the bus and I didn't know if that was a good thing or a bad thing coz 10 minutes into waiting, my tummyache became ...

yawns..im too shagged to type any entries after a LooOOoong walk with a friend. But since this entry is already pending since the event was two days ago (judging from the time now which is 2am), i guess I can only show some pics and comment along the way... gathering at work. Look what Ive got! a cute lady bug on top of a..err...scratching thingey! I invented a silly song for this ladybug..'oh lady bug! lady bug!..go.shopping!' chocies galore! how nice..now how many did I kaput..hrm..*wonder* *wonder* tsk..how sad..me sitting among my PETITE colleagues..and I stood out lah..like *duh*..dubious honour. but nice shot girls! me test driving my colleague's birthday present in the form of a new handphone from her husband. I tested the camera and uh...yup..it's perfectly fine...haha! this was a trip to Paragon to 'refresh' ourselves a bit and man! am i THAT busty?..haha.. me and my brother's trip to vivocity. I told him to look happy.. and he looked better now! he...

Quick post cum update! funnie..im pretty much done with my shopping and I actually spent less than 200 dollars. The only conclusive reasons were that the things I bought were on sale. Perfect! Saves me the money..haha..and yes, after a long period of anticipation, I finally got the chance to go the Mango Sales. Yipee! Me and my colleague went straight after work and we went to the second nearest outlet at the marina square. when we were almost reaching the boutique, we didn't see anyone leaving with bags of mango stuffs and there didn't seem to be a crowd at all. But come nearer, there was a crowd but based on our experience, it wasn't a big crowd where you would be practically jostling for space or waiting behind some goondu to hurry up with her choice of clothes. And erm...pls lah, if your boyfriend/fiancee/husband is not going to give you your two cents' worth on the pieces you chose, leave him at home or somewhere else to loiter. Take up space only. But ah, hehe...t...