Monday, April 28, 2014

Overwhelmed but Grateful

 I admit that I felt overwhelmed mid-week. I had orders coming in, which is good believe me, but another thing is that I have just started on a new module as of last Monday. I've always felt lethargic last few weeks and add school to the repertoire, it somehow made it worse because for three times during the week, I would return home late at night after school and doing some grocery shopping.

To me, school doesn't quite interfere with the time I spend running the online shop because I am usually not productive around the time I reach home from work which can be anything from 7.30 to 8.30pm. I would rather veg out infront of the laptop and do mindless surfing either on the laptop or or on the phone through wireless internet. However, I simply could not get up in the middle of the night to do my work and just my luck, I had to rush several of my orders including one who, I don't know if it's a miscom or something, said that she didn't receive the mother's day card along with the anniversary card. I know she specifically told me that she didn't mind getting that mother's day card later like in early May. I don't want to argue further so I thought I would just do her card.

So as mentioned earlier, I had difficulty waking up. At most, if I am feeling extra lethargic to get up to do some work, I could still manage to do so at about 6am or even earlier than that. But I slept through until 6 plus, haha. Therefore, I had no choice but to inform my office that I would be taking time off but it simply meant that I would arrive late at work at about 11am. Of course I didn't specifically tell them about rushing orders. I told them something else instead, hee.

Then just as I thought this nightmare of rushing work is close to over, an order which I managed to extend to this Wednesday, it was brought forward, all of the things that she had paid for, to Sunday morning. I was like OMG, but I thought that I could do this, even though I would be out with my brother doing our explorations, because I didn't want to hold on to this order anymore. I had to move on to other orders.

How I managed? I managed it well enough to finish all the cards, and although a little bit more time would make it to how I had envisioned the cards, though I am still satisfied with the outcome to not be able to notice the time constrain that I have.

However all these taught me a lesson. Remember I was mentioning about how 'overwhelmed' I felt in mid-week, so much so, I had to take some time off from work to complete my orders. I realized that I should be feeling proud of myself instead. I am doing things that I would only wish for in the past such as continuing my education because I felt that there was no way I could afford the fees, even at a diploma level. There was no way I could earn some extra income and when I have the ability to earn it, I was thinking about how hard it was to get orders. I should be thinking positive and grateful for being given these opportunities. I won't let anyone and most importantly, myself down.

Moving forward now, I am able to pay for my second module for my diploma, and I have been receiving orders every week. It didn't really matter to me that I am pursuing a diploma instead of a degree and it also didn't matter to me about how much I receive as long as I can be kept going and income will come in as and when. What matters to me most is that I am able to pursue further studies and I am able to contribute to my savings fund which also help me to pay off some of my debt besides using it for household expenses.

The only thing I have to do now is to keep track of time, continue to work hard in life in all areas and overcome my lethargy. I believe that whatever we do, we must put in the efforts, don't give up easily and if we fall, get up and start again.

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Friday, April 11, 2014

Me & My Attempt in Drinking Chinese Tea

I don't know how but I seem to be gaining weight around the tummy, hips and well..butt area which is so excruciatingly difficult to get rid of. Many women tend to gain weight around those areas and it really sucks. I have no idea too how I've been gaining weight because I don't remember eating a lot of unhealthy food. Everytime I set my mind to losing weight, I gain instead, haha. My lunch isn't fantastic either. It just consists of oatmeal and wholemeal bread except for one of the weekdays where I get to skip eating oatmeal and eat a proper lunch instead bought from the canteen.

While I think it's true that as you age, your metabolism rate slows down which means that you burn fats at a slower pace, it's not completely true that you cannot lose weight at all. I know that I have to be more conscious in what I eat such as eating more healthier stuffs and do more physical activities to help in the burning of calories.

I read over the last weekend that a successful weight loss means 90% diet and 10% exercise. Basically, what you eat is what you become or something in that line. As I read further on what food I should take to aid in the weight loss, I discovered the benefits of green tea.

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I know you're thinking where have I been. I actually don't like the taste and smell of green tea. It just reminds me of highly concentrated shampoo product, haha. But somehow at one point of time, I had to drink green tea at a Japanese restaurant because it came in a set as part of our groupon deal. Buying another drink will add cost so yah, unless I want to choke on my sushi, I drank the green tea and I found out that drinking it without the sugar isn't sooo bad. 

However, I still am not a fan of the taste so what I do is to hold my breath and drink it non-stop until it's finished. Then, on the first day of attempting to drink this humble drink, I did more research and found out that while it helps to increase metabolism rate, it only increases it by 4%. However, with oolong tea, another type of Chinese tea, it seems that its increase is higher at 10%.  My office pantry has both and while I have bought my own pack of green tea, I used the pantry supplies. I tried to find for the oolong tea at the groceries but I cannot find the exact brand. There is one other brand but it's pricey because it's organic. I am going to find either the same brand or another one but at an affordable price. It's so much harder to find than green tea which every tea manufacturer seems to have though. I guess people already know how more beneficial oolong tea and I am so much left behind, haha. 

I better get my own pack soon before I used up the whole pack in the pantry ;p

I hope that with a healthier lunch, where I will faithfully eat the oatmeal lunch every week day at least 4 times instead of 3 times, together with drinking chinese tea, I will see some positive results. If I snack, it will be minimal and only in the morning. Usually in the late evening I will feel hungry so I will just eat some marie biscuits to curb the hunger and finish off with oolong tea. I know I can't see the benefits fast but I hope to at least look better before I start school in less than 2 weeks time.

I've seen other women about my age or younger are taking a more conscious attempt at losing weight too not for the sake of vanity only but for health in the long run. At least I hope they are. I mean sometimes how can you not when you are surrounded by people who are so much thinner than you who you work with or go to school with on a regular basis. I know how it felt like back then when I used to go out with my former classmates. I also felt different from them.

Hope this post inspires you to drink Chinese tea too!

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Monday, April 07, 2014

Treasured Memories

In life, people come and go. Even things that used to be in the rage and of places that used to be bustling with people, over time popularity may dwindle, things take a toll by the harsh realities of time but memories are not meant to be broken. There are people who may do things that upset you and practically make your life a living hell but there are also others who are basically real life angels. Sadly, the rapid changing world has made many people cold hearted and instead of doing some self-reflection on how they could be better, they choose to blame it on other people.

When you hear them talk, all you can think about is how the world doesn't revolve around them. Don't always expect people to bend over backwards for you for your own benefits. Fortunately, there are still others who are rational, supporting and caring enough to be there for your in times of your need and to support you in every step you take. 

I do have such people in life and one of them is a friend, not just to me, but to many others. Her birthday is coming up soon and we did a small celebratory lunch with her before sitting down about two hours later to pass her the gifts, and ahem..for me to take the opportunity for a selfie with her.

I cannot find any faults in her..well, perhaps her inability to find a boyfriend LOL...oh wait, that happens to be mine too, haha. She is down to earth and level headed about things in general and practically an angel with a lot of lame jokes in her mind. I just think that she is where she is right now not because of her family background but because she deserves all the good things that she have in her life right now. She is so understanding and practical and think before she does things by not letting emotions get in the way.

Nowadays it's so easy to find easily irritated people who have no qualms picking fights and quarrels, even in the middle of the road or in public places. But this friend of mine has a certain kind of zen in her, haha. Well, what is the point of always being angry at other people anyway, eh? We're not perfect ourselves, we can't expect other people to be perfect too.

Happy Birthday to you!

In the evening, I had the chance to go to the defunct Bukit Timah railway station and instead of enjoying myself, within 5 minutes, I was overcome by sudden illness that we had to cut our adventure short. Haiz, don't wish to get into details of it. It's so majorly embarrassing although thankfully there isn't many people around.

To cut the story short, it was a bad experience although thankfully, nobody noticed it. I've caught myself in this situation before and it was not a good experience too but I learnt from my mistake. I also learnt the mistake from my earlier illness too, sigh. 

I managed to take one lonely shot of this remaining railway track.

You can imagine the situation back then when people used to lug their belongings and hoping to get home safely amidst the bustling crowd. I had one memory of boarding the train when I was so much younger back then in the early 80s at the Tanjong Pagar railway. However, I wasn't quite sure if it was indeed a memory from the past or I was simply imagining things because I did have pictures of my parents in the train from our old album. I could have imagined going to the station and eventually the train.

If indeed it was true, then it will be like a treasured memory of mine, much like the selfie I took with the upcoming birthday girl.

People and things may come and go but what is important to remember are the treasured memories we had of our first adventure and the friendship that we have.

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Not Loving Myself & The People I Love..Enough

I know, what a shocking title right? The truth is..I have been feeling rather 'meh' and as much as I read about self-improvement whether about my side business or my life in general, and how I want to do this and that, everything seems to go on the slide down. This is what happens when you don't know WHY you are doing this or that. You don't have this hold in life where you know what you are supposed to do but you just don't have a firm enough grip.

I've read this a few times and I know that I just have to tell myself that if I love myself, I will do whatever it takes to bring happiness in my life by improving my life and making things better for my family. Because if they're happy, I'm happy too. I should count myself lucky that I'm not dirt poor or living in the slums. I should be grateful that we care for each other in the family and having a few well meaning friends who are supportive and colleagues who also care for my benefits. I don't think you can find colleagues who, once in awhile, wash the cup for you even though it can be filthy at times from the stains and wipe the table for you with your food crumbs left behind.

Basically, I'm ruining my own chance of making myself and other people happy. I let emotions get the better of me and I let laziness easily overcome me. I know my flu bout made me rather listless but it took me awhile to snap out of it. While I still somehow manage to squeeze in time for honouring the orders, it's only because I force myself or I'll risk my online shop reputation for not fulfilling the orders.

I also let my health take a slide too and even though I know what I am supposed to do, I didn't do it wholeheartedly. Yet, I ask myself why this is happening to me like why all this weight gain and that I don't deserve this because I've worked hard all this years trying not to go back to my past weight. But that may soon become a reality if I don't do something about it and stick to it instead of just making it a touch and go effect. Thankfully, I still manage to follow the Sunday routine of going to the gym even though there are times my mind fights quite hard in preventing me from going but I've trained myself in not letting such silly thoughts overcome me.

I also want to improve further my finance credibility because I know I will be in big trouble in future if I don't do something about it now as it may not just affect me, but my direct family members. It is a slow and painful journey getting out of my financial troubles but every month, I have been making progress.  I also want to create a healthy emergency family fund and while the financial road is not easy with increasing costs and a stagnant pay, I know that I have to be a little bit more conscious of my spending power and my efforts to save no matter how small the amount because I will reap the benefits from it. 

I don't want to complicate matters. I just want to make it easy for me by simply doing what I have to do to get what I want for a better life and future. Just like the beauty blogger, Michelle Phan, while she loves make up and making video tutorials, her journey isn't easy as well. First off, she wasn't born in a rich family and her mother struggles to bring her and her siblings up as a single mother. So she made use of her talent to turn things around for them.

I too wish to turn things around for my family but first, I must start loving myself first. By loving myself, I know what I'm supposed to do, work hard at it to make things better not just for myself but for my family too.

My simple motto in life should be if I love myself, I will work hard for me and my family. I won't let anything else stand in the way, not even my laziness.

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Long Weekend, A Little Rambling & My Lack of Gratitude

The day I discover IG filters It's almost mid week to August..argh. I am in the midst of a long weekend, which sadly will come to ...