Showing posts from May, 2015

My Gym Crush :) & My Own Unique Beauty

When I finally thought that I have embraced my own unique beauty, physical flaws and all, I am being hampered again. However, don't worry about me. Everytime I thought of comparing myself to a certain body size, face shape, looks etc of what I perceived as the 'ideal beauty', I told myself to just stop and think of myself as my own unique beauty.

But today, I felt like I wasn't deserving of a friendship that may or may not happen. Straight away, I put myself down like some sack of potatoes, literally.

This guy I've been crushing on at the gym, well today, he looked extra good. Suddenly, I saw his big guns (aka biceps) when he walked past me with me shrieking loudly inside,because his t shirt was rather fit looking. I realized that this guy looked pretty big. I mean he isn't skinny in the first place which I've noticed all along but somehow, I got to see his all muscular body today.

I didn't really care about that but it's just something about him that…

Celebrating My Bro's Birthday..And How Proud I am of Him

My one and only younger brother had just turned 20 last Monday and through out the years, I felt that he had become more matured, still with the 'heck attitude of a typical teenager but has become more responsible. He is responsible towards his studies, his extra curricular activities, and more importantly, his family. So much so, he has decided to take on a  part-time job working after school on weekdays and full on during weekends. However, instead of just waiting for his job to start in the evening, he will put in time for his studies or project as this is also his most critical year in school. 

With that, I'm so proud of him. No doubt, I didn't force him but I felt that with him working part-time, he will be able to also learn valuable life skills that the school can't teach. Even though his main motivation is to help the family in a way that he could, I believe it will benefit him in more ways than one.

Next year, I hope to be able to graduate together with him. I c…

We Have the Power Inside of Us like Supergirl

Let us all be fighters in our own ways. Let us take back the life that we have been wasting, turn it around and make it become better. Often we complain how fate is so cruel to us, not caring about how others have it worse, and still find time to make life better for themselves. There were thousands of migrants who had been flocking to neighbouring countries and when interviewed, their only hope was to start life anew. They risked their lives coming here for a better future, end up without food and water and died by the thousands. Therefore, we must always be grateful for the things that we have but at the same time, work hard and smart to get the things that we want not for the sake of showing off, but for a better future.

I feel guilty to the max this week for not being able to overcome my weakness and instead, fell hard for it. I still felt that way until just now but I told myself that if I don't create value in my life, I would forever remain stagnant and be victim to my own l…

Johor Trip 2015

A friend of mine, decided on an impromptu basis, to go for a day trip to Johor Bahru City Square. The last time we went there was in 2012 and I remembered them buying a lot of shoes, LOL.

Well, she had the same intention but I just wanted to buy some clothes because the last time I went to a big mall in Johor, we had soooooo limited time for shopping. I know that's not the whole point of the learning journey but still. I'd rather spend my moolah on them rather than well, their made-in-Malaysia products. Technically, the clothes are still made in Malaysia, right?


I guess coz we totally missed going overseas together so a quick trip would suffice. Oh yes, the whole point of us going there is to eat our favourite food and snacks. And that explains why I have the food pictures below, rather than our shopping loot.

She did get a pair of heels which look absolutely good on her ala J Lo. Coincidentally, her song came on air just as she decided to buy it. J Lo has spoken!

She had …

Trip Down Memory Lane to Tanjong Pagar Railway Station

I had vague memories of going to the Tanjong Pagar Railway Station. I was so young then but just like any wide eyed children, it was definitely an exciting experience for me to still remember passing through the railway station.

Now it has closed its doors and would open during public holidays for people to come and view and also probably, reminisce the times they used to go there. Some families also brought their children to revisit this part of history.

I could imagine the place used to be bustling with people as they would go back to Malaysia where their hometown was or to visit long distance relatives. And also to transit here and make a living. While waiting for their train to come, they would enjoy traditional Malay or Indian cuisine to fill up their hungry tummies. 

The railway station signified the bilateral ties shared between Singapore and Malaysia. The signboards were in Bahasa Malaysia. Within the compound itself, there was unique architecture and stained glass depicting kamp…

Our Self Worth

Taking a tagline from Loreal, "Because I'm worth it" as we really are. But how can we know what we are worth when at times, we feel like we're so inferior compared to other women who we ourselves perceive as more attractive, more personable and so on and so forth.

I liked how this guy advised that we must first fall in love with ourselves first. How can we expect other people to fall madly in love with us when we are struggling to come to terms our own values.

You can watch the full video below. 

But the key takeaways for me

1) Value Yourself More as a Woman

We need to own it. If we know how much we're worth, we will become incredibly sexy to someone.

Confidence with a Smile. We look at people with confidence, sincerity and warmth. I picked this up from several videos that I watched from the reality drama The Profit. How this guy is a billionaire, who appears to be warm and friendly to people, when he first introduces himself. But when it comes to business, he's …

Finding Love When You Least Expect it

A blog post I read got me thinking and well, probably a Japanese tv movie too that I watched might have influenced this thought - that love will find us where we least expect it and provide us with happiness that we thought we will never get because of our tormented past and our self hatred.

There are people who are looking for their soul mate and there are also those, that took on a wait-and-see approach and just let nature take its course. There's also a small group, and I find myself in this group, that it can never happen to me.

I know for a fact that I've not opened up myself to the possibility of falling in love or someone finding me as a potential love interest. That's why the universe pretty much respond to me in the same manner; that it's simply not doing anything because I asked for it as I see no future in it. 

But I'm just a girl. As much as I resisted, there is a small part of me longing to be noticed. Not loved, but simply noticed. Because it will make m…

The Struggles I have & The Strength to Move On

I have no right to comment on people's lives and how they manage their money. If they need advice, I can give because I don't want them to learn the mistakes I did back then in 2011 which continues to haunt me until now. At that time, prices were increasing while my pay remained stagnant. It was so hard that I was thinking why am I even on this face of the earth and feeling like a complete failure to the family because I was so hard up on cash.

Fast forward now. While I am still struggling, I have been mindful but I long to get out of this debt trap. I do. But reading inspirational stories all around, of people with the same struggles as me, it is possible to start all over again. You also have to establish what are the things that matter to you more, rather than buying for the sake of buying. And not to continue shooting ourselves in the foot by continuing to be in an even heavier debt than we are before. 

Sometimes, I understand things happen like myself, getting a laptop beca…