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Confidence

I really admire those girls with great self confidence who go past their insecurities and trudge on without a care about what people think. Especially...those big girls coz I am one big and fugly girl...and if onlie I can have their huge confidence so that it can help me carry myself well enough. I tell ya it's not easy being surrounded by girls of average size and there I am standing tall among them like a torn. Coz I am a whole lotta bigger than them....and in other words, I feel so 'giant'. Eurgh..hate that...and just as I felt confident after carefully choosing the clothes that I would wear..that would be SO me...someone just had to spoil my mood by choosing to be a whole lot nicer than me even though it's just a tank top that they're wearing...or that they're wearing something understated but they ooze self confidence like no other business.

It sometimes make me feel that no matter what I wear..no matter how good I felt when I first wore that nice top, whe…

Primary School

hi...

when you were back in school, have you ever heard of the phrases like 'keep in touch' and 'friends forever'? for me, maybe i'll write 'keep in touch' in those infamous autograph books but somehow, at such an age, i knew that the chances of that occuring is almost zero. how can it not be? those ex classmates or school mates, who seldom talked to you...laugh with you..hang out with you..out of nowhere ask you to sign that darn autograph book of theirs..and for me, basically it's just to fill up spaces to make it look like they have a whole lotta friends. dont mind me..i'm a cynic even during those times.

and you know what? i hate it whenever my mum mentions some names who used to be my ex school mates back in primary school. Coz right now my brother is in the same school so there are times, when my mum is in that neighbourhood and some of her friends, are the mums of my ex school mates. She's the friendly sort...so no surprise about that. but…

Magical

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Man..I love vertically challenged guys and I just lurve guys with this stout physique..and especially those biceps..wooh! Come on, let me touch them!!!! he can do magic on me anytime! It's like..wowza...btw, he's a magician. And he came to singapore to do his magic! why the hell they didn't inform me about it!! shit man..i could have done a 'groupie' thing on him. And maybe more...

Well david caruso, looks like you have competition. I mean..he's too tall..for goodness sake, he is 6ft tall! Can't reallie see him that way on tv since he's a bit the crooked..for the backbone I mean..not..somewhere else. Anyway, I love guys with a sense of mystery..he doesn't talk that much..but when he talks, it's like..WHAM! Instant attraction..although I have to act like im deaf since guys like these..they tend to whisper...heh..Whenever he talks, I have to turn up the volume a bit since..cannot hearlah what he says.

And I love guys in their work shirts...it's …

Gained Weight!

Man...I have been feeling so lethargic since yesterday...u have no idea how horrible i felt for gaining one kg. I know..you're thinking like...pffttt...it's just one pathetic kg..but u don't know how much that means to me. It ain't easy losing 1kg by itself and so far, in this year, it has been yo-yoing between gaining and losing back 0.5kg. But so far, for more than a month, I have not gained 1 kg..like that. And I have myself to blame onlie. I have been eating...and eating...for the past one week and I reallie felt terrible for having to eat rice for almost everyday. THis shouldn't be the case. At least for someone who is trying to lose weight.

But at one point, I started to get bored...I started to get bored with this diet regime..hrm..like I still haven't given up chocs or really eat just peas and carrots. I'd rather die than eat just peas and carrots. Still, I really cut down on snacks and the quantity of food that yeah..like I said, I started to get b…

SinGLe

I dont know if this is experienced by other races as well..but I wish the malay society will b e a bit more open-minded? I mean..come on..doesnt mean I dont have a boyfriend (or that I dont have plans to get married) I am gonna die a loner or what. I truly envy those who can dodge unwanted attention when they are pestered as to when they will get a boyfriend or get married.

Like they asked me if I know some guys, and have any interest in them...but I said so far..no. From what I see..I onlie see them as friends, no more than that. I dont have them constantly edged on my mind. For a guy to get stuck in my mind, like that famous kylie minogue's song...he mz have made a very good impression. For the longest time, since i left school..no one had come close to that chinese guy I met last year. Alas, it was onlie meant to be just a 'dream'..even the prospects of wanting him to be a friend.

I couldn't exactly remember how it all began but I thought I blabbered that yeah..I do h…

CONGRATS GORILLAZ!!

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MY HEARTIEST CONGRATULATIONS GOES OUT TO THE....






GORILLAZ!!!! For winning 'Pop Collaboration With Vocals: “Feel Good Inc.,” Gorillaz Featuring De La Soul.' And they were part of the opening act for the Grammys alongside Madonna
You're the BEST!! I know u'll do me proud!! And credits also go Green Dayfor 'Record of the Year' for The Grammys 2006..Let me tell u guys..their albums truly truly truly rock my woRld! I can smell grammys for them..even before their nominations! haha...once again, congratulations guys!!!

New haircut

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Sometimes I like my hairstyle..sometimes I dont. But all i know that it is prettie unruly..out of shape..but because the initial haircut was well cut...it turned out alright when I grew my hair out. jZ that I cant stand the two heavy 'kinks' towards the end of the hair as it flips out.

But anyhow...i actually asked for a layer cut...that means same shape and all but jz that I want it look a lot neater..and az usual, it turned out different. Still, actuallie I tot its not that bad...for a cut thats onlie ten dollars..heh...it's a spur of the moment thing. I look more fresh..'younger'...and my hair dont look as heavy as it did before...






hairstyle before the 'chop'




New one

Different, eh? Well it helps that the weight loss also helps to reshape my face a bit so I actuallie look less chubby when I have this short hair. Normally I look 'rounder'..still, u have no idea how hard it is to maintain my weight to prevent it from coming up..even if seems to stay thi…

Why So Jealous?

hey...

sometimes I dont understand why people let their jealousy seeps through and u have done nothing against them..just that they're not quite happy with what you have and they turn it against u. Dont understand? let me give u a situation. U were just hanging out some shopping centre for fun...no intentions of buying but happened to be there was a sale going on and u saw this blouse for like...9.90 onlie. And ur colleague called u and happened to catch u at a time when u're shoppin but u didn't let her know exactly what u bought but simply joked that u were just catching on with the chinese new year celebrations..keke.

then u went to office the next day and she was full of envy and she asked if the blouse u were wearing was the blouse from the 'shopping' yesterday. It was and u casually said nice ah...then ok..so ur colleague was like telling the other colleague how she caught u shopping when she made a call. So it was no big deal, right?

But it was when...ok...let…

Dream Date

hey...whats an ideal date for u? I know this sounds stupid and ridiculous maybe..haha..but I wouldn't mind a trip down to Seoul Garden..the barbeque people! Wooh! The luscious buffet spread with so much variety..i can ensure a two hour stay there is less than sufficient!

Right..and i come out of the restaurant smelling like barbeque myself..

BUt i want that! I know it sounds silly you're all dolled up with nice heels, outfit, make up and hair..and then u go into battle zone and I doubt u can look dainty while gorging on the food. The last thing u want..of coz..is letting ur date see u pig out on so much food. Right...somehow maybe my colleague is right..that may sound like a bad idea for a date..haha..

Right..so let's go to plan B. What would be my ideal date..if theres no seoul garden..that is? Okay, it may be a common date plan but i wanna go to suntec city and sit on the podium near the fountain of wealth while a laser show is being carried out. Right..so some of the laser…

Not a Puppet

Man, I feel like im trapped in some manhole or something..day in day out im doing the same things..i hate to be at the beck and call of people..i hate to be forced to do things that I dont want to do. And the 'best' thing? thats when people escape while I have to do the 'dirty' job.

Like I dont like to be forced...in the sense if i dont want to play bowling or pool..it means..i dont want to play. So what if its just for the sheer fun of it. I don care if we are all on par with each other but if I happen to be the onlie who sucks big time with balls...no pun intended...it really..er..sucks. Like the previous outing with my ex oi friends when I had to be 'forced' to play bowling despite my protests to escape it this time as I just DONT feel like playing. And yeah..it showed on my face..my movements..my whateva....and before this I know I already sucked and who cares if the bowling ball constantly will go into the drain pit or whatever u call it....I just want to p…

Gawd Im So Sensitive

Hey...man I've gotta stop being obssessed with taking pics of myself! I mean..hey..a little bit of self-praising can do wonders for ur personality and boost ur self confidence..but..............if it means putting them up on friendster, personal blog, on the ofc table, shoving them to ur team member's face numerous times..and taking pic of myself with her own handphone and putting it up as its wallpaper..this has GOTTA stop..heh...although the last bit was so darn cool.

But u know what..I guess it takes guts..LOTSA of it..to finallie come to terms with the way you looked now compared to before and how much you dont want to look like that anymore. And the hardest thing? Maintaining that look. You just feel like u went for a dry clean onlie to be tumbled dry lateR which makes a perfectly toussled hair...freakin messy. Eurgh...and I dont want to be putting on cakes and cakes of make up on my face like an extra skin that doesnt match my actual skin tone at all....so u know wat? Ev…