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Hypocrisy

Sometimes I feel that Im a bit too harsh on myself whether on food, money, health and etc but I dont want to do something and then end up regretting later and that is going to bite me even more. I read in a magazine that the ultimate makeover one can ever give to himself or herself is confidence. Being a girl is difficult especially if you're my age where you're supposed to be at your prime like look good, feel good and where the opposite sex tends to make quick judgment about you as well as the girls to see. I never used to care about all of this. I mean..who cares if guys didn't look my way. Who cares if those damn girls who give other girls the 'look' whether the ones they look at are ugly or prettier than them. NO matter how you felt like you dont care about what they think about you, sometimes we cant help it but think about what if they do pass judgments about you. Is it a good one? Is it a bad one?


Seriously, we're all hypocrites deep down inside. It takes a whole lot of gut to admit something about us if it is going to undermine us and make others belittle us and think about how shallow we are. Have you ever come across situations where you pretended to do or say things that are so not you at all just because you dont want others to think about how boring you are? I have actually and I did write about them but you know what I thought about it later? I felt stupid. From then on, I kept my mouth shut or just smile and let them think what they want to think like Im a girl who goes out on a frequent basis and come home late at night or what but infact I'd rather just sit down infront of the computer and think geek. I used to think it sucks having little friends or that my friends were not cool enough but that was in the past. Life lessons come and go and then you learn that the exterior may not have such a great impact. You soon learn that the very popular people..they dont have anything to offer to you. At times, it even felt like they were using you just because they thought you were no better than them. But just because you felt 'accepted' for the first time, it felt like an honour. Trust me, that honour would feel like poison later.


To me, one of the lowest form of hypocrisy is when people think they're so perfect..way perfect beyond others but infact, they are just that: pretty on the outside but so shallow on the inside. Even those people who think they know heck lot about religion and that they're so gonna go to heaven while others are condemned to go to hell if they are against what they believe in, they can be hyprocrites themselves. Unknowingly, they may do more sins especially if they keep thinking negatively about others. We're all unique people and who are we to pass judgments about others if we dont know them enough but just based on how they look like or the kind of lifestyle they lead, we start hating them. We're not God. Let Him hold the judgment.


Life can be a very funny affair. We keep saying others change but we ourselves can change too. Like come on! We're not static. We keep moving on whether or not we like it. Even if we have any principles in life that we hold on ever so tightly, then one day...something happened that shook us from what we believe in and we either live in regret or live in a new form of happiness. At times we can explain what is going on but other times, we can't. But, we have the power to heal. IF you think holding some guilt inside us is bad, it can also be a good thing. Without guilt, we may not be able to realise that all this time, we have missed the mark because we chose to keep one eye closed and pretended that everything was okay or perfect.


Still, as a ground rule, we have to think about the risk factor and it's not just about having some fun under the sun. No point crying over splilt milk, so to speak. But whatever it is, just learn to move on and try not to be a hypocrite as much as we can. Still, if you want to think of yourself as some kind of beauty queen or one of those models parading in a bikini and posing on the cover of FHM, well..go ahead. I'll be contented thinking about how Im so blessed to have a hot boyfriend..imaginary or not.

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