"Living Each Single Day"

When I was younger right up till my late teens, I have been the case of bullies and though they didn't actually physically assault me, their words hurt me a lot. Initially I was upset a lot but my father would tell me that I should just ignore them. I guess he just want to hush me up coz he didn't want me to bother him. But anyway I just followed his advice. Infact I followed it so closely that I got kinda jaded already with the whole verbal bully thing. Naturally I would still feel upset about it to a certain extent coz I'm still a sensitive soul and I'm just a girl. Eventually I managed to hush up the cruelty of the people by just living in my own world. Hence why I was quite a loner. While I may ignore them, I believe that good things will come my way so long as I continue to be a good kid. I also learn to be more tolerant towards people as I don't want to end up like them. From my experience from such people, I become more selective over who I should be hangi...

Let's do a fun post. That will be me diverting your attention away from talking about how life is so so so hard sometimes..haha. I'm just going to write about random stuffs about me that you may or may not discover about when reading this blog. Well, I am a generally shy person, which my friend attributed it to my Virgo sign but honestly, I don't follow the horoscope coz despite the many coincidences, I don't believe in it wholeheartedly just like I don't believe in fortune telling.  But when I do open up, people find me generally a nice person and they just enjoy my company, talking to me and giving me stuffs. I don't know how and why but they just like doing so. I like to help people and also I treat people nicely so I suppose that's why people are like fine with me.  Okay I think you heard of those stuffs again and again, haha. So that is just a tiny intro of...what are the OTHER stuffs you may not know. Hrm, I think most Caucasian guys are han...

Have you ever lived in regret? Actually, I do and most of the time, it is about money. Of course I do have my regrets in the past where I wished I had studied harder so that I don't have to end up with sup par grades that do not give me a better paying job. Anyway, what I am thankful for at least is that I have the brains to finally pick up the pieces and catch up on my studies. If not, I won't even be sitting comfortably in my own little cubicle.  When you have a family to support, a lot of things go through your mind. Honestly why I am so hesitant to start my own family is that I don't want to add burden to my life. No, a family is great. It is! Just ask any of our ministers who are advocating single people like us to have children. I meant, burden in the sense that I don't want them to end up being ill fed and brought up haphazardly. I see a lot of people who could not take good care of their families because they got married hastily and find themselves unable to c...

I didn't think I talked much about my birthday the other time but well, today is exactly one week ever since my birthday and how am I taking it in my stride? Er, not so good but then not to worry my fair and lovely ladies (it kinda rhymes), I hope things will look up soon :) Let's talk about what I hope to achieve in this new age of mine. Firstly, I would like to tackle er, this diminishing youth problem, haha. So long good skin in the twenties! Come to think of it, my skin wasn't so good back then (seems like so far away, ha!) but just like over a few years ago, I decided to take an overhaul over the way I have been taking care of my skin and I must say, I don't look so bad right now though the ugly factor is there. Anyway, ugly or otherwise, more importantly is to stay beautiful on the inside :) Maybe it's just psychological thing in my mind that I look better than before but then you be the judge, that is if you know how I look like in real life though. Pictu...

It's amazing how being in love can change a person. For the longest time after a heart has been broken, it is really hard to get back on track. You keep thinking what went wrong and as women, we tend to blame ourselves if things don't go right like it is our fault, even though it may not be. But when we're in love, it's like the moon and the stars are shining on us. From wearing black all the time to wearing coloured clothes that bring out the colour in your eyes. We do anything to bring out the best in us and to impress the potential love interest. Then when we find ourselves truly in love and when we are loved back, it's like we feel that we have accomplished something. We just change for the better. Life is sweeter and we that we are breathing in the sweet sweet love in the air. Of course I'm merely talking about the good side of love. There are of course girls who get involved in unhealthy relationships but they continue with them either because they t...

Anyone can be sexy. Really! If you think that love can't come to you because you're fat, heavy or ugly, you are so wrong. Honestly I don't give a frack about guys who would go after those girls who are so picture perfect and they parade around such girlfriends like a prized trophy. Honestly girls, who give a damn about such guys eh? Especially if the girls have such a crass mouth..eurgh. Even worse. And who cares if the guy is so freaking handsome you wanna die? Be damned! Anyway, frustrations aside, yes I'm talking about the frustration of living under a hope that some guy out there have a little bit of interest in wanting to get to know me but narh, lady luck ain't shining on me. What I get is some creepy guy who are..well creepy enough to scare me and not interest me. Don't fret. When I say anyone can be sexy, I mean it. Sexy is not defined by how small our waist is, how long and silky our hair is, or how long our legs are. Sexy is defined by someone who ...

I appreciate every little miracle in life. I really do. Yes, sometimes I admit that I get too caught up with a lot of unnecessary things in life that I don't know where I am heading but then things may happen that will just help you along and make life better for you. I call them my little miracles. The first miracle is seeing how Fluffy the cat is back in my neighbourhood. For a rather long time, I haven't seen this adorable friendly chubby cat that just loves to roll around on its back whenever it sees someone approaching it as though it's some kind of entertainment. We made so many conclusions as to its whereabouts and my brother made a not-so-nice remark that it could have been knocked down by a car as it lives at the multi storey carpark.  But it returned!  How can you not love this lovely cat? My other miracle is that in times of need for money, where I am so so SO struggling and I don't know how am I going to basically go through another week, my cl...

Yesterday I kept waking up in the middle of the night thinking about how am I going to survive the week. I've got very little money left & it is going to be hard for me. I hate going through such unnecessary turmoil. I've mentioned a few times how this year is so hard for me. I even maxed out my credit cards (but which luckily only have a 500 limit). I half regret getting those cards coz it made me owe money unnecessarily which I dislike. But I've got no choice coz I faced severe financial difficulties this year despite my some boosts like bonuses and all. I have limited my use on them and will plan to pay all & eventually cancel at least one or two by first quarter of next year. But you know how life has a funny way of giving you a glimmer of hope at times especially in times of need? Well it did. It wasn't much I would say but to me, it still means a lot to me. I got a 20 dollar hongbao from my colleague. Honestly, I didn't expect it from them. I w...

Just last week, I went to the Charles & Keith warehouse sales and while walking to the warehouse, I realized that they have another warehouse situated just nearby their other warehouse. My goodness, talk about expansion.  I live along Paya Lebar Road so journey isn't so bad for me because it is about 15 minutes from the warehouse. The last time I went to their warehouse sales was in March last year and didn't go the one in November of December last year because I had no munneh. This time round I did simply because it was around payday. So I could spare some money. Anyway, I needed new shoes and their shoes are like so freaking ex nowadays compared to the last time when I used to buy my shoes from them, which is so weird. Honestly, many of their shoes don't deserve the kind of price tag they were given not because of quality but I guess it's a brand thing. Well, whatever. Looks like I just have to rely on such warehouse sales to go 'borong' or buy in  min...

So..we had a very post birthday celebration. Well, not really. It was officially a month after her birthday, come to think of it now actually, haha. Sorry I is slow sometimes. I actually did most of the planning and my other friend did all the driving. It was so...funny in a part that at one time we were like where is KPE? where is KPE?! And all along we WERE on KPE, hahahaha..three clueless girls in the car. I actually gave mostly the directions. From TPE to Lorong Halus to KPE...my goodness, for a non driver, I learnt a few acronyms. If you are not living in Singapore, they are basically the acronyms of the different highways we have. I think we pretty much covered all the expressways except BKE as that is going to the west side.  Well my friend Nutty wanted to badly watch the movie Crazy Stupid Love and we all actually had to rush here and there JUST for us to catch the movie, haha. Hence the panic when we didn't realize we were all along on the KPE highway. Go figure. My...

Okay this is so silly. I used to run these kind of posts and I somehow stopped. I guess coz I was so...lost in the moment where I just adopt such a laid back attitude towards life instead of making it productive. Anyway, I'm sure every now and then you see me put up pics so I think it isn't...so bad? haha. Enjoy! It may look ugly but my mum's chocolate chip cookies are da bomb. I made this programme brochure in 2001! I kept it till now. I think this tin box is so cute..I got it from my VP Mum's homemade nestum cookies..very nice and crunchy! Eu De Toilette for Men..Burberry baby! I have sweet tooth & I like biscuits from Marks & Spencer The penguins are all the way from....London Marks & Spencer! I just love this vintage look of the packaging...there were 3 in a pack selling for SGD1.99! I just realize the pictures are mostly cookies coz I love cookies! Although must eat in moderation, haha. follow me at http://...

So I have resolved to be kind to my new colleague though I still find her irritating. I guess sometimes it is just human nature for them to behave like that. Well, everyone's different but at the very least she is generally a nice person. But anyway, enough talk about her. By the way, I got a first birthday present and it is a..crystal vase or jar. I don't really know what to do with it actually, haha. I think it is pretty useful, for mum which she interprets as it being a cookie jar, hehe. Like I said, I'm not really fussy about presents unlike some people when they say that it will be nice if someone can get something which they really like. But unless you drop very obvious clues, then don't expect something which suits your taste. To me it is kind enoughof the person to give you one :) While sadly I didn't manage to lose weight as I initially wanted to prior to my birthday, I just resolved to do so come Monday onwards. Being officially 30 means that I won't ...

I've always hoped and pray that I don't encounter a major illness in my life which can be life threatening to me such as cancer, diabetes, heart disease and so on. Life is so fragile. They used to say that if you don't watch what you eat and lead a sedentary lifestyle, you are most likely to have such major illnesses visiting you. But now, that is not always the case. How many of you know of fit and healthy people, who has probably not smoked in their life or practically run every other day, find themselves suddenly battling with cancer in the long haul or suffer a major stroke which made life more difficult for them? I'm sure you know of at least one person, or read about them. There is no guarantee in life. It is unfortunate things like this happen and it makes life so difficult.  The point of this entry is to seriously treasure what you've got now. Your friends, your family and most importantly, your health. Doesn't mean that there is no guarantee about...

Hey peeps! Yes, been slightly more than a week since you last heard from me. I haven't really do much. But last week, I have been trying to survive for like 5 days because I was at the tail end before my payday on the Saturday. Would u believe I only had $10 at the start of the week?! But thankfully, I had stashed my coins away for times like this and then exchanged it for dollars. It was quite enough like an extension on a game. I was trying to ration like crazy! But it was worth the efforts. Now I'm back to doing the same thing for the next couple of weeks until our maintenance money. But sadly I spent quite a fair bit just now and my heart just like dropped when a 50 dollar note becomes 17 dollars. Hrm. But it is justifiable except the bit when I had to meet a friend at the last minute. And she's the type who hardly opens her wallet to share the costs. Now that I know her tactics, whether she does it on purpose or not only God knows, I try to go easy when buying stuffs...

I have dealt with depression a few times in my life. Two times it was so bad that I just cry so freaking easily like my eyes were made of water tap. I was depressed in terms of how I had been mistreated as a friend and another time was because I did very badly in my studies. Other times, it wasn't so serious but I still cried not because I wanted to let go of the sad feelings but thinking about them makes me very sad and tears just flow naturally. With the stress in life and the demands that I sometimes can't cope, writing is one of the best ways to deal. However, writing is only a small aspect of it. It is a good way to distract myself and to let me sort out my feelings. But honestly, sometimes writing can make me even more miserable. A good thing that came out of it all is how people react to these feelings. Friends and even strangers give encouraging words. That was good enough to lift my spirits up momentarily.  But the one that is going to help you most in dealing with...

I was getting frustrated last week because I got another letter from the lawyer regarding outstanding payment for the conservancy fees. Why I was frustrated was because the last time I got such a letter, I almost paid all the payment, which let me to sacrifice not buying anything for myself except for a pair of shoes, which by the way, also made me realize that I can't wear covered shoes. That is another story. Anyway, I could not deal with another of their  letter and with their uncalled for demands to make payment within 14 days that I just....I just had to write to them. I didn't want to think that I am one of those who refuse to pay even though they are capable of doing so. I wanted to tell them that I am behind payment because I simply could not keep up with them as I am financially disadvantaged. With the ridiculous amount that I am being charged every month for utilities, and that I am also a sole breadwinner who doesn't earn much, it's not something that I di...

I have been running a few so called fun blogposts recently because I don't want to turn my blog into something depressing. My life didn't get better but it is somehow slowly trying to survive the ordeal because believe me, it's not easy being in such tight financial spot. But I thank God that along the way, I receive small amounts of help that may not seem much to others but make my life slightly easier like as if I have been given survival tokens in a game to extend my lifespan a bit..something like that. So those of you who are thinking that life is so hard for you, trust me, it will get better. We go through life ups and downs and even those who are seemingly happy, they're not always happy. They may not go through hell and back like some of us do or be in perpetual state of unrest and misery but if you look at those truly happy people, they are always not necessarily of those who lead a good life. They just choose to see life in a positive manner in which they kno...

Some friends are meant for life. If you have them, treasure them and even after you have families of your own or on the way to climb up the career leader, never forget them. Friends that keep you grounded and lift you up during your darkest days deserve to be treated well. Can't wait to meet up with you girls again! follow me at http://twitter.com/rahayupopz

This year, my mum prepared food for Hari Raya!! When my ex colleague played me out by deciding not to give us food this year (which I suspect she was upset I didn't order stuffs from her), my mum rescued the to be dreary day by slogging in the kitchen and giving us glorious food. I'm a happy girl when it comes to home cooked food. Wouldn't you be? If you are still out visiting, do take care of your food intake because around this time, all the richness of coconut milk and oil will come to play. Drink more plain water rather than sugared drinks. Think of your health for the long run in the midst of all the fun. You wouldn't want to be sick during this joyous occasion, right? Nevertheless, enjoy yourself and get acquainted with your distant relatives or even friends. This is a good time to ask for forgiveness and bond. Once again, Selamat Hari Raya! follow me at http://twitter.com/rahayupopz

Presenting my first vlog! Done in a way where you can't hear me talk except for the words 'Bunny Rabbit'. Yes, I did make a mini appearance. This is interesting as I've never done videos before and thanks to my brother, managed to do some really minor video editing.  Can always count on  my brother to know what are the latest public events in Singapore because I is clueless. I would say it is interesting though I wish there are more of it but you know, it's not about the quantity but about the quality. I guess in future, it will be better.  If you intend to go, do check it out though I suggest you don't wear heels coz you have to walk around the Bras Basah area. Best if you go on Friday because you get free entry into the Singapore Art Museum and the National Museum from 6 to 9pm. Go with your date or with your family and highly recommended when you are as broke as me but don't want to be living life as a hermit. Then if you got time later like you ...

If you often go to Watson's to check out the make up range, perhaps another place you should check out is Mustafa Centre. If you can spare yourself at least $15 or even lesser than that, say $10, you can actually get a product from there and then rave about the colour pay off.  You can check out the CCUK range or the Lakme Cosmetics range which is from India. If you watch the Bollywood beauties, their make up can be so gorgeous and so intense! Especially their black eyeliners, super the intense and this is one of my gripes. I like eyeliners but for the life of me, I can't draw a perfect straight thin line because my eyes and hands are not co-operative so I prefer and eyeliner that does it well and quick with great colour pay off and I think I may have found it already. So I did check out before their make up range and before that, I have never heard of this Lakme products or what not but I did a few swatches over there and I really liked it though I didn't buy coz I was...

Singapore now has a new people elected President and I cannot be anymore pleased....that the elections is over. Why? Simply because I stayed up so late until 4 am for duty *yawn yawn* but the excitement was there because the fight was so close between two of the hopefuls. As we were doing the counting, we could actually tell who was in the lead and who was obviously losing but we had to wait for the rest of the counting centres in Singapore to tabulate the figures. And tabulate they did, so much so that at freaking 2 am in the morning, we had to do a recount!! Overall, I wouldn't refuse such opportunity. Come on, this Presidential Elections don't come in every year. The last elections was in fact in 1993. Yonks ago, peeps! Granted, this time we were provided food. More like a snack pack and I thought there was so much inside, it was meant to be shared but actually it wasn't. All for me!!  I couldn't finish the pack unless they want me to get diabetes coz they ...

If you read my blogs, you will know that I've never been on a date for many MANY years except during my teens when I was just well..getting to know guys and that was about it. Adulthood? Nada. I can't deny that first dates can be rather nerve wrecking from picking out what to wear, what make up to put on and whether you can come up with enough topics to talk about that will keep him interested. I picked up some tips from this magazine that I got for free for singletons like me who work in the civil service. Thought I would share with you as well as giving some tips of my own. First of all, score a date. You can go on group dates and if you want to be a little bit more comfortable in such group dates, bring along a friend at least. Make new friends in the groups and if you catch one that you fancy in the group, waste no time in getting to know him. Because basically interest will wane over time so while it is still 'hot', grab it girl!  Okay if you are too shy fo...