"Living Each Single Day"

hello... Okay so i didnt get to take D's picture...tsk..forgot about it. Bugger..the 'should i leave..should i not leave' guy..alamak, make up your mind lah! I didnt see him around yesterday even though he still made his presence known via his call and his messages. Apparently he will still be around on Monday but I just leave it to the guy to tell us when is he really leaving...no seriously..as in REeeeAaaLLlly...leaving. Well, yesterday was also the last day with my present team member and it had been a blast working with her. We joked a heck lot..tried to wear the same outfits on certain day..officially declared by our other colleagues as 'the twins' and we shared a lot of common thoughts with each other. She's just a simple laid back girl..which is so me too....and we shared about the same tastes in clothes..except her tendency to wear ALL black..haha..but it kinda influenced me too. Yes, pink is in storage. For now at least. Yesterday we shared a bar of cho...

So today is D a.k.a bugger's last day with us and tomorrow he will be off to another job. But to my knowledge, it is slightly different story. But when he was questioned by one of my colleagues..you know that kind of 'aunties'...he said that thursday (which is today) is his last day coz his so called new job is calling him to start work friday. But when I messaged him and told him I wouldnt 'bully' him into repairing the socket (which he was jokingly complaining he is from mechanical engineering..not electrical engineering!) if i knew he was leaving that time..he said that he is not sure yet. Im like 'what?!' And he told me not to tell anyone that he may or may not be leaving but just try out this job first. So if he's okay with it, then Monday I wont see him anymore. But pfft....judging from the kind of workload he had to do for this job, I doubt we will all be seeing him next Monday. When he found out from me that we were planning on getting something...

haiz... have to rely on my own skills to produce photos of my pre-pubescent crush. doesnt anyone like him and post his photos on the net for my easy retrieval! anyway, at least I get to catch in good poses..with and without jacket...if I DIY..hee... presenting..DJ Spike!! him and his best mate.. hate her.. hate her face... an enemy of his...wah this one ah..seriously got bad boy rep. check out those arms! well, not really well toned but who gives a damn now! the tattoos look oh so....*droolz* confrontation with his best mate..but they made it up later.. Sorry a bit the dark..too lazy to make changes coz choosing the right moments to snap photos take a lot of trial and error lah.. so thats it..my pre pubescent crush..(is that how you spell pubescent anyway? haha..). If he's this cool, I dont mind if he's even ten years younger than me lah! heh.. (taken from you tube)

Sucks being broke...no seriously, it sucks big time. Apparently im not alone...even my partner was dead broke..haha. Just now we went around AMK Hub but before that we walked in Ang Mo Kio Central to find a place to eat and she didnt even stop to look at a shop and even commented that this shop..where they were selling very the cheap clothes...at even 3 bucks...were too 'expensive' for our state of being broke..haha.. It was so pathetic that all we did was walk around in our heels looking oh so classy but actually dead broke in the Hub after lunch and drinking our bubble tea (apparently our favourite drink that we get once every week). Like earlier on, she didnt even stop to look inside the shop and just said, heck we should just do window shopping. Sadly, this will be the last week we will be working together and already my upcoming partner is annoying. She was like asking me how to go to the school for next Monday and I said I dont know coz I had not checked it out yet..let a...

Sometimes I wonder if my mum ever think in logical terms. I mean seriously, you can find yourself explaining the same damn thing over and over again and if she holds on to her own set of opinions, which to her should not be contested, it will be a serious waste of time explaining. And worse, she can kill my patience coz she just..wont..listen!!! GawD!!!! Then the next thing, she will ask again. Im this close to going mental! Like the other time I took mc not only for my nasty rashes on my fingers but also coz I needed to settle some financial stuff for my dad urgently. We thought that we would get the cheque over the counter but NOoOOo..some people just had to make life difficult for us! So we missed by just a day when we went on Tuesday and apparently they only process this kind of transaction on Mondays. And then we can only expect to get the cheque within 7 days after the processing. Wtf?! See lah, they can easily fish out money from us and then when it's time for us to get it ...

WHAT?!!! Just as I was done typing out that last entry, I wanted to post a picture of the character (Spike) up and then I found out that the actor playing Spike? He was born in 1985!! Im four years older than him! Damn $%%&... I had a crush on a PRE PUBESCENT!! (mariah's favourite term..) Dammit..UK people do look years older than their age..

gawd..what has the weekend plus this extra day off from work done to me?! Im currently obssessed with this one particular UK drama through you tube and thanks to one user's diligent extraction of the episodes for just the important parts, Im practically hooked as to what happens next! And there's this 'saga' as to who the main character will end up with..the one and only true love but who is suffering from an identity crisis (and an ass too) or the other person who is just right but is unaware of the love saga that is happening in the background. As much as the current crop of this love saga fans would love to have this main character end up with that so called one and one truly love, I'd vote for the second one. Why? Coz he looks hot and slightly beefy and is a club deejay and though his arms are slightly covered in rather huge tattoos akin to a bad boy image, he's really sweet. Very....sweet. Okay I'll stop salivating. His character's name? SPike. You ...

This is a pretty stupid show..and I hate that loud mouth Gwen..buT! It kinda explain some stuffs like the fact that some straight girls are attracted to gay guys..and the minute they mentioned that they're gay..it will be 'hello!'. Of course provided the guy is not their boyfriend lah and it will be the most awkward situation of all if he came out. I mean seriously, whats not to like about them..just look at these guys! How can I ever NOT be so fixated with them? Especially the one in the middle..fooh..makes rahayu's day anytime! He claimed that he is not gay in real life even after acting in several gay movies but he just might be a closet case..I dunno. Anyway I dont care. Hottie hunk has a universal definition. BUt the one to the far right? I thought he's cute and funny but in this movie, he had all the brainwaves but he thought little of himself like way out of the league of the rest coz he's err..geeky and not as beefed up as them. So there was no way guys ...

hey, tomorrow may be D's last day. so that's the thing I wanted to say but it could be a 'maybe'. plus he didnt tell me anything about it or any of our other colleagues except for two of them but it was like a spur of the moment thing. Apparently he was still considering this new job coz it's better. The thing that was holding him back was that he could not bear to leave us though we had nothing to do with his night delivery and that yes..at times..we could drive him insane a bit that hinder his timing by a heck lot without any rest in between. In other words, HE MISSES US TOO MUCH! bwahahahahaha.........i wonder what black magic we used on him. But, he's a guy. he cant be that sentimental! I bet it will take him a split second to think 'oh what the f**k..Im leaving..who cares about them'. So *sobs*...you're the second best driver around (nobody tops our dear Uncle from the original cohort!) and you're young and talented (geez..why am i being ni...

Im in the mood for posting some pictures even though they're not relevant to anyone's life (maybe except the second one). Totally to distract you from my ever lengthy entry posts..hhaha. The first pic is a very recent picture of a childhood friend of mine who finally got married after a series of 'tak jadi' or never made it relationships and engagements. She's a friendly person, a few years older than me and have quite a temper like when we were young, she tend to get moody and attention craving sort. Im not surprised..her mother the pampering sort. Gawd I hope she doesnt read this. So congratulations to you...(i sound so unconvincing..). Oh, and this is my REAL love of my life. I know I havent been telling you all that Im seeing someone and that I lied when I say im still single and boyfriendless... And no! Im not talking about the shoes hanging in mid air but the guy on my left lah silly!..See how he flexed his biceps..fooh...and before that he was wearing a man...

Okay Im thinking about something right now... I want a guy best friend. Okay..good friend. Alright! Anything BUT boyfriend..just as long as he's a guy (gay or whatever..), Im happy. It will be sweet. Why this sudden interest? Well...it's kinda cool coz you get different set of opinions unless he's full of himself. Then, there is seriously no strings attached to each other so you can totally hang out with no clause in between. And you can talk shit with each other too whether in broad daylight on the phone or deep into the night. No..phone sex is not part of the act. I think it's just diversity...like you have girlfriends on one side and guy friends on the other. Cool right? Alas, no such thingey for me. Dear GOd, I dont ask for much. Fine if You want to take your time pairing me up with a decent..uhm..preferably Chinese guy or making me fall deep in love with at least one person that is not a celebrity. But cant I have a guy best friend? And no D..doesnt count. Well, it...

you know what.. sometimes I feel that I have tried hard..but at times, it felt like I didnt try hard enough. I do ponder what God has planned for me or is it just me...unambitious and all coz I felt that I dont have enough resources at hand and that I have enough things to keep me worried. Oh well, whatever has been lined up for me, it sure isn't at an arm's length. Maybe still on its way. It'd better hurry up coz day after day, I feel like my existence on earth has been nothing but redundant coz Im not progressing in any way no matter how I have tried to improve on the quality of my life. Well, no one's life is worry-free right? RIGHT?! Come on, convince me now...Man, can I just take a break from life from awhile...haiz.. Another thing that is slowly making me out as a loser is the level of frequency I've been talking about D. I read an ex friend's blog which was posted yonks ago...okay..months ago...and she's talking about her boyfriend and she seemed real...

Ackkk!! Did D just praise me? Wah very the shocked..but then, coming from him..if he's praising, it's not a good sign. Might need something. I was lamenting how Im 'stuck' with my partner for lunch and he was like..no wonder I see you're getting slimmer and slimmer! Of course I was like..huh?!..how does that fit in? And jz thanked him even though I doubt his sincerity and I went on saying yupz..what to do..coz I lost my appetite eating with her (and my partner was making noise at the back..haha..). But I guess he assumed that I knew he was just joking..because I seriously did think he was.....and he said again, yah..you ARE getting more and more slimmer like you're losing more and more weight when I see you. Whats up with him and his emphasis? Then worse still, after that he was looking at me as a whole like up and down (what the hell..) in particular my arms coz maybe I was wearing a black top and a long flowy green skirt given by my friend (I never wear long s...

Yup..today finally the audit freaks came to er..audit my team. And man..yesterday my leader jz came by to give pointers and today they showed up! Plus, my mentality was like..they couldnt have come so soon after auditing one of our cluster groups yesterday plus with the appearance of my leader yesterday, they probably would give us a chance to 'warm up'. But NooOOoo...they showed up! And I was this close to being late and thank Yishun mrt for having taxis on standby. So as soon as I dropped at the mrt station, I ran to take a cab and hoping to reach there under ten minutes...coz that was all the time I had left! And thank God I reached there on time...like by under a minute! But of course....it was costly as well lah..considering that a bus trip would be a hell lot cheaper. Haiz..just for the sake of being 'punctual' but luckily, I didnt decide to be freaking complacent today or I would be super late. I dont wish to comment much about the audit coz it's bloody borin...

Hello... today I dont feel like a pauper because it's pay day but of course...I try my best to make sure the money lasts a weetle bit longer and that nothing comes in between that forces me to spend quite a bit..haha..Then again, hard to say. Well, I just started covering a different location for my field work. But thank goodness it's within the heartlands and not some obscure places. And guess where it is? In Yishun? Yes..residents of Yishun. I shall be invading your space for at least this week and early next week. So far, have not got myself lost yet. But I dont want to speak too soon. Especially if the block numbers jump around...or the feeder buses suck blood like the ones that come once every twenty minutes as if it is some freaking free service shuttle service. Hello, that one I dont pay of course they take their bloody time but this one? I cant accept it if the bus drivers act like one big shot...gawd! And blame me if Im late... By the way, today....the lightbox for m...

hello.. blogging from the vicinity of my office. Okay more specifically, in the counselling room. I had not even signed in yet after my return from screening (apparently my second time to the office and it was just a little over half a day) and then I had to be sent to the bloody room for counselling sessions with the parents. Good thing the few parents that came here had a sense of humour. Maybe they were God sent to entertain the super bored and pissed rahayu. But the time passes by here quite quickly because I dont get bored especially if there is internet connection around..bwahahah...and oh, music from the radio from my handphone. Oh man...today is a freaking lousy day..a lot of deja vu incidents like for example, havent I been to this mrt station just this morning...and then...poof...Im back again! Tsk..all coz the lousy school wished to start later than the usual time and it has to be located near serangoon which is quite near where I live. Then I had to report to office first ...

Well, hello again. Guess what? Im starting to become a junk food addict but I think it's just a temporary case of me being under the stress of work. Coz it's only been a week since I was last out of the supposedly easier life at the refraction clinic. And Im craving for potato chips and chocolates and..and....argh...epok2! But then after I ate the potato chips, of which the health freak in me still had the decency to look for those trans fat free and with less fat content even though it is slightly more expensive, I forgot that Im not really a potato chips fan in the first place whether now or then..haha. It's the lure of the packaging I tell ya! It gave me a bleurgh aftertaste after eating a few...haiz.. Im seriously disappointed with my lunch meals the past few days even though I tried to make healthier food choices. I ended up eating vegetable dishes glistening with too much oil. And then fries as accompaniment to my grilled chicken foldover coz it would not make sense t...

hello... i feel so incredibly bored. Even my attempt at watching a gay themed music video was...well...I dunno...I was seeing it at half screen only. That means half of them I covered up with my eyes lah even though there was nothing sexual going on in the video. No, seriously. Oh, dont tell me Im 'recovering' from my tiny addiction? heh...but i still love men whether they're gay or not provided they're not the girly girl girl type..coz they're so hunkalicious. I dunno...maybe this boredom is induced by my financial woes? So anyhoo, even the thought of seeing D after screening was not wat I was looking forward to already. I guess my mind is just so clouded up this week coz I had been damn busy at work. I just dont know why some people are just assholes. They have been been giving my team mediocre feedback even though we worked our butts off trying to 'please' them by being flexible but yet...our feedback showed that they thought we were not good enough. F**k...

hello! wah that bugger ah...seriously ah...damn big bugger man..I thought who messaged around 9 am in the morning and maybe just mariah. But I was too busy so I only read it only an hour later. I didnt see who send but when I opened it, I was like..wah fancy being called 'pretty' as an opener by mariah until I read the rest of the message that asked if I could finish up the screening by 5pm instead of 5.30..Buuuuuggerrr.....well, at least I made him call me the popular and gorgeous one and even I didnt promise I could finish up that time ..two can play that game what. well, anyway he was lucky. We finished way before that. WHy? Okay first the stupid freaking assholic school (i can never trust overfriendly school staff the minute i entered..and im often right!) made us shift our equipments twice and then asked to shift out again so that the other class can use back the classroom. That is after we went beyond our schedule by screening an additional class! I was giving this '...

it's great to have a partner whom you can 'click'..she's friendly but not overly friendly..has a warm personality and she can actually do this 'mind reader' thing..haha. Nolah, like what she says..it's coz we're about the same age group that somehow we have almost the same wave length. And I was like..drats..cant trick her..haha..I mean seriously, she shared almost the same thoughts as me. But she's a fast learner and Im teaching the ropes and she was surprised just now that some of the things that she had been following from her attachments with other teams were...not according to SOP. I wanted to tell her earlier that if let's say the freaking management drops by to check or audit, some of the things that we do..we're not supposed to. But why we had to resort to bending the rules a bit coz the SOP sucks big time and so not time efficient at all. It's definitely not possible if you have to screen a heck lot of students and happy..err..fo...

Gosh...im failing in the department of finance..and to think I have self controlled myself but there were unforeseen circumstances that I had to use up quite a sum of money for each one of those circumstances. I dont know when I will reach a point where I can finally start saving up for good instead of having to dig into my savings that is just about to grow..but I had to nip it at the bud...GAH! Even if there is any additional money..and I am looking forward to saving up..something sure to happen and then I will be dwindling down the pole of financial crisis yet again that I thought it is starting to get pointless to save with those extras! I thank my mum for helping me out in ways that she can..I really appreciate her help. I seriously have no idea what to do right now...am almost at my wit's end how am I gonna try saving up for the future..like what? I dont eat at all? I dont spend at all? WHAT?!!! God knows how much I tried to say no to this and that almost suffering alone thin...

Aah..shoot..came here to blog but forgot what to blog about. Oh. Before we get to that..yippeee!! I dont have to go back to the pathetic office tomorrow! Since tomorrow is full day screening, I dont have to report back but straight from the field visit to home! Yippeee!! Oh, and I promise....tomorrow I wont be stepped all over by D with his err...talkativeness like if I say a single sentence..he will retort back in sentences often trying to put me down. Okay maybe like what Mariah said, he missed me..bwhahaha!!! eww..now I remembered what I wanted to blog about. Oh, I remembered being in a hospital with my ex schoolmates a.k.a the acquintances and someone was hospitalised..dunno who.. cant remember.. coz couldnt care less. And apparently the 'patient' who was our friend ran away and we were left searching the hospital premises. But we ended up visiting another patient and we were all sitting down there. And then....a friend of mine called A started grabbing one of my hands and ...