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No Chance

Being a fan of youtube, I think I log onto youtube more than anything else on the net..okay..maybe my friend mariah's blog. Gee I wish I can tell you the address but I've been sworn to secrecy..haha..


Anyway, you know how i Like to watch short videoclips or fan vids on you tube and even though they may not be the real deal..like stuffs that actually happen in real life, but sometimes I wonder IF they ever happen. Just now I saw this fanvid about this 1997 drama called Oz which is a maximum security prison and life behind bars between the inmates. Okay I know what you're thinking. It's prison...anything can happen and yes...trust me when I say ANYTHING..can happen..even rape.


But what I watched just now..was extraodinary. It was about friendship between two inmates that had to stay together in a cell. NOw their characteristics were very different. I did not know the background of the first inmate but the second inmate who later joined the cell..I know a bit of his background. He was a lawyer who had to serve jail time due to a drink driving incident that got a girl killed. The current inmate..let's call him A..he was this very temperamental guy.in other words, pretty psychotic while the B was more of the subdued kind who succumbed to alcohold and drugs probably coz life as a lawyer was tough or something.


Okay these two, of course HAD to talk to each other being in the same cell. But they were not often on the same wavelengths. However, over time they started to get to know each other well enough and understood each other's plight and the psychotic one...well...only B somehow managed to penetrate that tough exterior of his even though in his line of work, he learnt not to trust anyone. SO they bonded over wrestling match, chess game, eating time and in between squabbled as well which could result in bad brawls where one of them even had one of the arm and leg broken.


But life outside of prison was not kind to them as well and A (the psychotic one) found out that his wife whom he divorced..and by the way, it was his third divorce....was going to remarry. He felt bummed out coz he felt that in all his relationships, he never felt enough love like as if every marriage he ever was like a big mistake. He joked that maybe it was the sex coz he was somehow was still a traditional sort of person..you know..sex after marriage..haha..But B did not question him and thought that he was not a loser for having a failed love life. Instead offered him his friendship to make his life better even in prison.


However, it was not meant to be because B was served parol which meant that he was free to go. Of course it was a very heartbreaking moment and A was like saying that the rest of his prison life would be miserable without his companionship and when he was pushed by the guard to let A go when he hugged him, A threw a huge tantrum. But B was helpless as A was led away. Later B came back and promised to A that he would do his best to let A escape the death sentence. But as much as A appreciated it, he said that no matter what, even if he died, he wanted B to know that they would be friends forever, even in heaven and God could not separate them. Awww........imagine a guy who who was hard to be near with and would even beat up the security people if they provoked him.


After awhile, B came to visit him with some news which he read to A as he was standing behind bars. B managed to overturn the sentence and he would not have to face the death sentence. He was of course happy because he would be alive.


However, when the D day came for A to be released and B fetched him, as he stepped out of the cell, he wanted B to know that their friendship meant a lot to him but the world may not understand him and not be too kind to people like him even after being granted freedom. Of course B tried to talk him out saying that he still cared for him and that matters most. But A was not convinced because he felt that even their friendship could not salvage his past and wanted B to push him over the railings so that he would end his life but B refused. To A, knowing that B had a hand in ending his life mattered more to him (Dont ask me why...i thought it was stupid). But A pulled B towards him and B tripped pushing A over the railings and A fell down to the first floor.


A died instantly coz I think his head reached the floor first snapping his neck and B wailed over the lost of a true friend.


I hated the ending but it did emphasize on one thing which I felt was quite true. Are we that forgiving towards ex prisoners especially those with a violent streak such as A? Will we trust such people or will we think they will cause more damage because of their dark past? A felt that it was worth sacrificing his life rather than go on living because he didnt think he would survive the world beyond prison. However, if he died, he would die a happy man because not all was lost as he forged a deep friendship with B as only B knew him for who he was rather than what he was.


Haiz, I wished I didnt watch the ending and would very much wanted A to go on living. It would be difficult at first trying to blend into the society but it would be worth it and B already promised him that he would try to help him in ways that he could and after all, he did keep his promise when he said that he would get him off the death sentence. In the end, A carried out his own sentence.


Sad....truly sad..not just for A...but for B as well coz I figured he would probably go back to drugs and alcohol and would be in misery the rest of his life for indirectly causing the death of his good friend. Trust America for writing such compelling drama line and it could be fictionalised but who knows, the writer might be inspired by a true story. You know what I think? I felt that it could be based on a true story...maybe exaggerated a bit, but still....you never know what goes on behind bars may not necessarily be violence but strong bonding because after all, it is like a whole new different world there, dark nevertheless, but still not dark enough that these prisoners are no better than animals. Dont forget they are still people who have families and children and not all of them deserve to be there but by a twist of bad luck, they ended up behind bars.


My heart really goes out to these minority of people because their tainted past may not let them carry on life as per normal even after granted freedom. I guess this is how the yellow ribbon project started. Everybody deserves a second chance...why not them...

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