Happy Hari Raya
happy hari raya to all the muslims celebrating this festive occasion irregardless of whether you're in the mood or you're too overjoyed. it signifies the end of the month long fasting period but of course, a gentle reminder is to watch..ur waistline. After all, we're talking about one month of controlled dieting and then boom...hari raya comes and there is an array of food begging us to gorge on. Well, go crazy with all the cookies (im talking about myself here..unfortunately) and eat those delicious hari raya dishes because I doubt you want to offend those who took the time and effort to cook (uhm..especialy if that someone is your own mum). But later, practise self control the next day onwards..hehe..
oh well...like ive said it's not a good month for me. Hopefully things will get better..as i've always hoped. I know GOd is also there helping me tide over my difficult period..in ways that He can no matter how small those gestures are...I reallie appreciate it. It's also hard to be in between two parents that are just as stubborn headed as each other and Im more often is the scapegoat. My mum just need to know that she herself is not perfect that shes practically abandoning her wifey duties to my father but that she thought he deserves it coz he's not working and not giving her any income.
You know what..I really dont know what to say about that except that I try to not to think too much about it. I've got other more important things to contemplate about and that matters most. Sometimes I dont know who is acting the role of a sensible adult..them or me. I feel that there is a reversal of roles and that Im too young to have this burden on me. I am much better off planning to save up for further studies rather than to think if I have enough money to last for my family for the next few days.
Sometimes the way people say things like it is so easy to accomplish being young and all and it will be a waste for me if I dont think about my future. Believe me I do think about it but just that current circumstances dont allow me to do wat I want to do. Give me time and I know things will get better..I just know it will.
So I just have this request for people to not ask me questions like why this or why that...I understand that they dont know my plight so it is easy to assume so thats fine. But it can be a bore when I am being questioned the same thing over and over again. I guess i have to slowly learn to tolerate it..haiz....
Alright...once more...enjoy your hari raya...
oh well...like ive said it's not a good month for me. Hopefully things will get better..as i've always hoped. I know GOd is also there helping me tide over my difficult period..in ways that He can no matter how small those gestures are...I reallie appreciate it. It's also hard to be in between two parents that are just as stubborn headed as each other and Im more often is the scapegoat. My mum just need to know that she herself is not perfect that shes practically abandoning her wifey duties to my father but that she thought he deserves it coz he's not working and not giving her any income.
You know what..I really dont know what to say about that except that I try to not to think too much about it. I've got other more important things to contemplate about and that matters most. Sometimes I dont know who is acting the role of a sensible adult..them or me. I feel that there is a reversal of roles and that Im too young to have this burden on me. I am much better off planning to save up for further studies rather than to think if I have enough money to last for my family for the next few days.
Sometimes the way people say things like it is so easy to accomplish being young and all and it will be a waste for me if I dont think about my future. Believe me I do think about it but just that current circumstances dont allow me to do wat I want to do. Give me time and I know things will get better..I just know it will.
So I just have this request for people to not ask me questions like why this or why that...I understand that they dont know my plight so it is easy to assume so thats fine. But it can be a bore when I am being questioned the same thing over and over again. I guess i have to slowly learn to tolerate it..haiz....
Alright...once more...enjoy your hari raya...
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