"Living Each Single Day"

Sometimes I find that God works in mysterious ways to help us and Im really thankful for every bit of miracle He offers to us. Like last Friday, i was pretty upset that I was not able to set aside at least 30 dollars for the weekend coz usually during this time, I have to spend quite a bit on my family. I mean it's not that much too but at least something..better than nothing. So I was just practically thinking how to survive this weekend with the expenditures that are sure to come my way. Then, on Saturday, as I was gonna withdraw the money that I had set aside for the next week instead, I found some extra money and I was practically gasping like..'huh?'..It turned that I got an extra 50 dollars. I thought that I might have made a mistake or something..or or..the bank made a mistake. I know that part of it comes from this buyer who bought a pair of Mondo shoes from me...( a bit of self sacrifice on my part)..but it could not have accumulated until 50 what. The money that I...

Well well...I decided to forgo the featured model part and only focus on featured guys who can basically be from a musician, actor, err..magician...cab driver..and I have one here! Okay, Im not into brad pitt lookalikes..maybe...matt damon lookalikes..but then again, I believe this is a good place to intro guys that well, you dont really see them that much. So...hey, my blog provides them with a good exposure! They should be thankful for that..heh.. And today's featured guy is....... Van Hansis !! He was born on the Sept 25 1981..alamak..younger than me by few days...talented guy, very cool..and he's a daytime soap opera actor on As the World Turns. Okay, Im not your typical TV sort of person..except maybe CSI:Miami and Ghost Whisperer..other than that..im like..dunno dont care..but I usually survive on youtube. What to do..Singapore channels are not diversified as that in America. Anyway, why is he the featured guy? Well, coz I think he really shines in the show, has a huge fo...

While Im still nursing back to health, I cant get into full blogging as yet. So I shall leave with nuggets of entries such as this one. Britain's definitely got talent and I know Im gonna be so mean by saying this but I cant and dont know how to appreciate opera and not planning to. BUT! I believe this guy should be given credit for making opera sound so good. His soaring voice made me drop my jaw and I ahem..actually shed a tear! It's so beautifully sung and the fact that this is just an average guy on the street who was initially judged as pfft...an opera singer wannabe..proved to us and the judges that he was more than meets the eye. Gawd, if I was in the audience, I think I would cry buckets at his amazing talent. You go Paul Potts! You deserve being the overall winner of Britain's Got Talent!!!!! Kill me for being sceptical at first..but then again, you should revive me back coz i think you're so damn good!!!!

    ANYWAY, sorry for my absence coz I havent been feeling well. LET'S JUST SAY...a) the weather is a killer b) fasting month so have to abstain from...water...and I get dehydrated easily and c) STRESSSSS!!!! and uhm..a possible and I would say most accurate cause but refusing to note it under the last point is....bubble tea. Haiz...yes, that concoction of sugary, chocolatey, icey goodness. WHy I say so? Easy...this isnt the first time.   I have this pending birthday post to write and I could have done so that Saturday night itself..but my sneezing got worse and i..deteriorated..in health I mean.   I would be back to the blogging world in a bit.       Live Search: Better results, fast Try it now!

I thought that this is a great song..I dont really look into the lyrics but the chorus is haunting enough. Take a listen!

hey... i admit i've been feeling a bit down in the dumps lately with all the stresses in the world but I guess I can try to cope. For now. but Im not gonna write my depressing life story now...perhaps I'll just a dash of colour in this post to make up for the loss of interest in life...no, im not entertaining suicidal thoughts, dont worry. i was telling mariah about my partner this time whose not exactly the youngest that I worked with but still, she's nineteen. I guess they are right when they say that she has mood swings and even though I dont quite experience the angst driven side of her, she does scare me sometimes with her dumb-as-a-bat ignorance to me trying to converse with her and then on the other side, she will suddenly laugh maniacally at a certain comment I make or she makes. I dont know why...but she kinda remind me of avril lavigne with her pint size body and her 'dont mess with me' attitude. I guess this girl should take the chill pill sometimes....I ...

Helllooo..... wondering why the title and a bit of intro to my previous entry with the photos did not appear. Im too lazy to work out the 'edit html' portion. Well, it was a sombre celebration of sorts...it was more like catching up with a good friend of mine who took her time off her very the busy schedule to spend time with me talking about her school, my life..our lives basically..and coping with parents who are under medical treatment. She was telling me about her crushes from her school...students on exchange programme...and knowing how jovial and friendly my friend is, it's not a surprise that somehow they developed feelings for her. The only catch is that they're too young for her lah! she's in her late twenties but these buggers are in the early twenties. However, they take it as though she's denying them coz she cant move out of her indian tradition or that she's too closeted or narrow minded. But she told me the actual truth was that they were too ...

Birthdae photos...yes I know I dominate the pics...but hey, at least i included sceneries of boat quay! and the occasional odd couples sitting by the staircases by the river..waiting to be pushed.

Happy Birthday to Rahayupopz!!! This year's birthday is a bit sombre coz I felt like I kinda lost control or grip of my life and it has been a struggle trying to live each single day. There was happiness but unfortunately, it was short lived and Im back struggling to keep my head above the waters. But I take this opportunity to straighten my life out a bit and pick out broken pieces along the way. So far, I'm handling things quite well with the usual self sacrifices along the way but still...I try to think positively like how i stand to benefit from it rather than think the other way round instead. I hope God will stand by me in whatever decisions I made and help me to lighten my burden a bit too. Life is not easy and I totally understand that so I just try to put my mind in a relaxed mode and not to think too hard about why this or that has to happen to me. So far, at times I manage to zonk out a bit and be immersed in a world totally different from mine and even though it...

Hehe...so exciting! Im having a new segment...(ok i promise I will do up that tech tuesdays thing!..I just dont know what to write about yet). I am going to have *drumrolls please*.... Male Hottie of the week AND Male celeb of the week!! Male hottie is just a random pic that I look up on the net and Male celeb..well..duh...celebrity lah! I know you may not agree with my opinions or label me as a paedophile if the guy is younger than me..heh. But it's just a fun thing. I will be choosing the Male celeb and giving you the snippet. I think I have done this thing before a few times where I feature male celebs, famous or otherwise, but doest really make it an official thing. So...here we go! Oh, btw, I will also put up the names at the sidebar soon so you can click on it and view...(but seriously, see but no touching..like you can!) Male Hottie of the Week Jon Fleming Short Intro: This is Jon Fleming, 29 years old, a male model who now ventures into acting but unfortunately in a crappy ...

hello.. hrm, i didnt talk about the fasting month and so I should say it now..well....it has been an okay ride..nothing of the sort that make me drool at the sight of food. i guess my critical nature for food (a.k.a. picky) kinda makes me not so 'high' over the delicious array of food on display. I have this personal goal which is to try to lose some weight before my birthday or at least on my birthday, I must weigh less than the previous birthday. HOWEVER, it has been a very bumpy ride...no pun intended...I gained weight, I lost weight, I gained weight..you get the drift. But it's okay. Rahayu wont be so beaten up knowing that usually, by the end of the year, or coming to the beginning of the new year, things will pick up slowly....very....slowlyyyyyyyy...Anyway, I try to tell myself that weight is just a number but what is important is that I maintain a healthy lifestyle. I've always seen the fasting month as a good opportunity to start from ground zero if all these t...

It hurts...it hurts so bad to love someone so much that you're willing to forgive him many times, hiding the truth from others, to be mentally challenged seeing him happy with another person but his heart is actually with you and to believe in every..single..word he says...until one day, he breaks your heart and you're left with an empty void in your life. When we're seeing a relationship from an outsiders point of view, we may not take it too kindly towards someone who has a heart for another person already in a relationship. But let's just put ourselves in this so called third parties' shoes. They may try to avoid the situation coz it is very tricky and very complicated that a big pile of mess is highly likely to form if the situation goes wrong. Most often, the ending is not that good and everyone whether first, second or third party will be left a wreck. Feelings of guilt, lost love, broken trust....the emotions are raw and painful. So painful that even big boys...

I dont believe this.... they actually renewed the season for Dante's Cove and in October there will be season 3?!!! My gawd...total hunks without shirts..since the setting is at this beach house and the location for the third season was at Miami. Apparently they decided to renew it for the third season coz of the huge fan following. You sick people you...you all are just interested in seeing them humping each other! I dont know how you all can tolerate those scenes while I'd rather indulge myself in guys that dont see the point of wearing shirts. Actually the storyline is shitty with its gothic supernatural theme that seems out of place and with acting that spells 'you need acting lessons!'..and uhm..with guys pumping their muscles (hhhaaa..izz....weakness....). And goodness, their well oiled bodies glistening under the sun....showing off every tone..every crevices...that im beginning to think I might be one of those people who prompted the third season...haiyoh.....and...

Soooooooo...................... today I worked with the so called dreaded partner and...I actually knew about her 'meeting' with the supervisor and the leader about her behaviour or what they term it as attitude problem. Well, somehow she didnt display that attitude just now..and yet...she kinda bared her soul regarding the issue which I didnt bring up but she said it herself. At one point, she understood that we have more working experience than her in this field so we should know better but on the other hand, she felt that they're not perfect themselves. I dont know man, I know I was saying about how I dreaded working with her but I've always had this mentality that right now, Im only hearing half the story and after hearing her side of story, I guess I can only conclude that well...I guess they're a bit too hard on her. BUT! That doesnt mean Im turning into a softie and taking her side. I still feel that well....we all tend to err and being a teenager, she can ta...

hello... okay I admit i went a bit bonkers last week that almost let to my meltdown but I kinda stuck to my mantra of trying to live each single day..simply trying to survive and just accepting things as they are and trying to make the best of it. I also try to think that sometimes out of certain shortcomings, I can stand to benefit something from it or learn one thing or two. It helps in a way as I try to focus on other things rather than just focusing on my problems. Life isnt easy and if it is, I would have been married to Luke..or at least no one will proclaim Luke to be gay in the internet just coz he hangs out with T R Knight. Grow up lah people. But I still will have no probs if he is....as long as he retains that cute factor. And Oh! Wentworth too old for you lah.. so yah..tomorrow is D DAY I will be working with that dreaded partner. But thanks to the intervention of my colleagues who had worked with her, they decided to bring up her habits to our leader and today, they had a ...

Would you believe my brother made this movie all on his own using the Sims 2 inbuilt video software and the Windows Movie Maker. So far I touched an eety bit of it but he went full force with it and this is not his first effort. Not bad for an amateur eh? I only helped to add in the song and muted the actual song (based on his suggestion) and I developed a headache just trying to figure out the action snapshots and what have they.. Aww...my brother the next I.T. media expert! woohoo!

I almost forgot about my tech tuesday...but I have yet to write an article yet coz I didnt get the digital life yesterday so I most prob hav to dig a past issue so it will take awhile. Then geek talk will resume as per normal..haha..much to Mariah's dismay of course. Anyway, I was telling her about my silly dream about my supervisor and it was so shocking that I actually remembered that bit of my dream. Now I hardly remember about my dreams coz it's like wake up...and...eh, what the heck did I dream about ah?!!! So I told her that I dreamt my supervisor actually asked me before walking out of the office as I was talking to another colleague that if I ever need company to go out or anywhere, let him know so he can accompany me. I was like dumbstrucked...shy at the same time...and just managed a 'err......o...okay....'. Weird. I dont know lah but recently, every day he sure to say my name and ask me to do a favour for him or simply say something. I know what is so freakin...

damn hilarious!! A clip from 'Whose line is it anyway?' where Ryan and Colin are two pretend hosts of the show called Greatest Hits and they were promoting a CD on college life. And Ryan could not stop laughing when COlin said Tapioca instead of Tropicana where they played cuban music. And he sang 'TAPIOOOOOCA!!!' much to Ryan's amusement and it was classic to see him control his laughter being a serious improvisation comedy actor most times. But he quickly regained his composure while Collin maintained that 'did I say a joke?' look..

heylo.. actually I have a piece of bad news that is work related but Im not gonna talk about it coz I dont think it is a good time. Plus it's hanging in mid air so...right now, I will just let it be. Anyway, Im such an ass nowadays but Im trying to take it one day at a time. I get bogged down by problems easily and it's not helping too that my partner this month...sucks big time. I didnt hear good stuffs about her. I dont really speak to her at work either coz she's like one of those people who think she's so 'young' and 'cute' and therefore...act like that...but of course, to the rest of us, it spells immature or childish. Im not against those who are younger than me who just joined us as nurses coz for I worked with two of them...the latest one being just 19..well..today (happy birthday ziyuan!) and they are efficient and have own initiative. But I guess you cant be getting the good ones all the time, right? people have been telling me to try to discip...

So damn funnie! It's a serious show about a bunch of firefighters post September 11 but man..these two, are like the clowns or the dumb and dumber part of the crew whether alone or together.They are not gays but the rest of the crew liked to joke that Mike (the one with the towels) is the 'gayest' among them..so it would not be a surprise if he was gay, which he protested he was not. But I sure love this clip! He gave this pitiful look like...'help me..'..hahaha!

haha..this is so hilarious! one of them had to take booze from the gay party and the other guy could not accept that he did not look 'gay' enough..which he assumed something was wrong with his hair or his body. And he was so happy he got the body of a gay man when his friend picked him out..as in strong and muscular! what the hell!! But in the end, his superintendents still thought that the other guy would be a 'magnet' to these gay guys and get the booze..which he reluctantly followed the order later. By the way, this is a show about a team of firefighters.

you know what im feeling right now...absolutely krummy. In other words, helpless...useless...depressed...anything negative that you can think about, yup that pretty much sums me up. I feel like Im losing my head soon and I hate this sinking feeling but it's really hard to stay afloat. No one understands the emotional turmoil Im going through right now. I just find it hard to grasp that I dont even know what tomorrow holds for me or if I can ever go through each day as it passes by. There is this completely dark void in my life right now and Im missing something.....happiness maybe? You know they say...happiness is short lived. I think they have a point. It's like God let you enjoy life...just for that moment....and that wham! he takes it away just like that and there you are in the pitiful hole once again. If God says that Im not trying my best..He is so wrong. But everytime I try to make it better or at least try to make the happiness last a bit longer even if I have to sacrif...

Being a fan of youtube, I think I log onto youtube more than anything else on the net..okay..maybe my friend mariah's blog. Gee I wish I can tell you the address but I've been sworn to secrecy..haha.. Anyway, you know how i Like to watch short videoclips or fan vids on you tube and even though they may not be the real deal..like stuffs that actually happen in real life, but sometimes I wonder IF they ever happen. Just now I saw this fanvid about this 1997 drama called Oz which is a maximum security prison and life behind bars between the inmates. Okay I know what you're thinking. It's prison...anything can happen and yes...trust me when I say ANYTHING..can happen..even rape. But what I watched just now..was extraodinary. It was about friendship between two inmates that had to stay together in a cell. NOw their characteristics were very different. I did not know the background of the first inmate but the second inmate who later joined the cell..I know a bit of his backgr...