"Living Each Single Day"

Hold on to your horses peeps because I am doing a marathon blog post writing...ha! To basically occupy my time because I feel like I owe you valuable things to read.  If you are on a tight budget but want to get a make up palette with such intense colours, I recommend you the drugstore make up product from Wet N Wild which is not found in Singapore but if you know your way around beauty blogs, you can actually find out where to get them. And in Sing dollars, it's not that expensive. I bought mine at $12.00. I know that I told myself NOT to spend on make up anymore and to try to take part in contest for a chance to win some make up products but alas, so not working. Plus, it's only $12.  Anyway, if you live in Singapore, I can suggest two reliable blogs that source for their products and sell it to you. In the US, they are selling around $4.00 to $5.00 so over there, it's simply one of the best drugstore make up products. I got mine in Vanity. I like the fac...

This isn't a good time but I'm not going to cloud my blog with bad vibes all the time..haha. It has been awhile since I last wrote something constructive that I can share with all of you peeps rather than just depressing posts. Recently, I went out with a friend of mine and I think we have been friends since like forever..but then we just plan to keep it that way. To me, it is always good to maintain good relationship with your friends especially those that you are close with because friends are important and they can actually keep you grounded. Provided, they are good to you. Those that bring nothing but trouble, please step away from them. Anyway, I gave her a present which is actually a top from Cotton On. Now I'm not the best giver of gifts because I'm constantly on tight budget. But you know, I do make the effort. Sometimes, people can be fussy then I can't stop them from being so. For myself, I appreciate any gifts (really..) because I don't expect peopl...

Hi,  first of all, wishing all my muslim friends and readers, a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Honestly, I am the last person you should expect to be in such celebratory mood compared to the rest of the people, haha. With all due respect, I think it is a beautiful occasion as we celebrate the end of the one month of fasting and it is also the day where we pay our respect to our elders and ask for forgiveness among friends and relatives.  If you go house visiting, you get to meet your relatives, chit chat and bond over food that are especially cooked during the occasions.  For me, it is not really a joyous occasion. It has been like that over the years though at times,  I do visit houses if I am invited. I do get to enjoy the food though I have to be careful as the food cooked on this day are usually..well..let's just say they don't call it joyous for nothing, ha!  While I respect the occasion, I hope they don't overspend because while it can be such a...

When life isn't treating you well, what do you do? Do you just take it in your stride and just hope for the best to come soon? Or you just sink deeper and deeper until you don't know whether you want to go on with life or you would rather be dead than be in this state of suffering? As you can see from my last few posts, I can honestly tell you that this is like one of the worst times of my life. Ironically, I should be in a celebraty mood because the Muslim celebration Hari Raya is just around the corner and as much as I tried to save up as much as I can, lady luck isn't on my side. I don't even get any piece of news about an advance pay. It is almost the day itself, which is on Tuesday, and I have my doubts that I will get the pay anytime soon.  So what can I do about it? Basically nothing I guess. While we are encouraged to celebrate it, even in the simplest manner, I just couldn't. How can I when I am practically broke? I sought help before and got myself a...

I tell upfront that this isn't my year. I don't know if it has anything to do with me turning 30, but God forbids. Anyway, I am just taking it all in my stride, with the hope that things will get better. While I am happy that during such difficult times, I did get offers of monetary help which helps me to tide things over but there is just this short disappointment that well, not everybody can be nice about it. I don't wish to elaborate on it. I would rather talk about how I am just treating this as part of life and that not everyone seems to be what they seem to be. Like come on, even I don't know who I am a 100%, let alone someone else? But it kinda makes you wonder what got you there in the first place with that particular someone? Was it something that they do? Something that I did? I really don't know. All I know is that it is not going to be easy getting out of it. I just have to see it in another perspective and just learn my mistakes and not to take it to...

I went to Bugis Street just now because my mum wanted me to buy food from somewhere nearby. I thought I would pop by to look at the clothes and uhm, well I can't say there wasn't much variety but there were! Unfortunately, not for people of my size or my taste even. Anyway, I did come across a nice floral blouse that is selling for only $15 but I think that it is more appropriate for going with friends, rather than to work. I thought of buying it but my main focus was to get a new blouse for my upcoming presidential elections duty next Saturday. Yes my mother made me buy yet another new outfit...sigh. Like who is seriously going to see me do the duty?  Anyway, it's really difficult for me to shop for clothes because my clothing style is really really simple and I hate gawdy designs, which is actually a majority of clothes nowadays. I just think that nowadays, they just follow the trends blindly and they're not really wearable for every day use. And when the designs ...

I enjoy reading people's blogs. I really do. One day I wish I have many visitors like them like seriously a LOT of visitors. But then, I don't want to write promotional stuffs. Most of them started writing about stuffs in their lives but once they have a made a name for themselves, they use their blogs as a platform to do adverts and other promotional stuffs. While I think this is a very business savvy move, it will not happen here. If I do any promotional stuffs, like reviews, it's on my own accord, nothing else.  Anyway, let's do a fun post, considering how down in the dumps I have been feeling. One thing for sure, I can breathe just a teensy eensy bit right now. I suffered THE GREAT MIGRAINE earlier this week and still am suffering it every now and then though it has been diminishing and it has put a damper in my life. I tend to get headaches when I'm too stressed out. I don't know. But I am happy that in a sense during my down moments, I received some hel...

First of all, a shoutout to those who commented on my blog recently. Thank you so much for the positive messages even though we don't know each other. It means a lot to me. In my previous post, just as I finished writing it, I took to my twitter still being all upset because I still didn't feel too good like I'm just not worthy of dealing with life's current stresses. I am feeling as if I am this ticking timebomb about to explode. Truth be told, I have suffered from depression before twice in my life when I was in my teens. It went untreated because nobody knew. Eventually it went away though it took months but when it did go away it was as if this heavy burden has been lifted from my shoulders. Actually my problems are not new. It is just that somehow I manage to pull through each and every time and seriously, I do not know how. Mentally, it is torturing. Physically, well, I get splitting headaches which render me weak and I have to turn in early coz I couldn't co...

I know my last post sounds rather morbid. Thinking about it, I'm not sure whether it is my moody TOTM speaking or just my welled up general unhappiness in life. Honestly, there are times, which I am sure you experience as well, when you just feel so down in the dumps especially when life isn't treating you well. There are a lot of people who don't give up and rise above the rest. They work very hard despite people telling them they can't do it. But chin up, people. It is not the end of the world. When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. Or in plain Rahayupopz context, chin up people! You just have to deal with whatever gets thrown your way and make things better, not for the worse. If they don't get better, at least you have tried and made the situation more bearable, and just hope and pray things will get better. Based on experience, sometimes life throws you a curveball. Not everything is going to be hunky dory. Therefore, when things aren't feeling so ...

To be honest with you, I'm simply tired of living like this. I believe that there are far better people out there who are fighting for their lives for another shot of living but due to some mishap or illness, they were not able to live their life as per normal. I hope God gives them that sought for second chance especially when they have many things that they have yet to accomplish and a family to love. What do I have? Though I do have a family, probably my mum is right that I am not reliant enough like I don't really contribute much to the family especially in terms of my measely salary. I couldn't afford the expensive private course fees to improve myself. What I earn is not enough for me to spend on my family and myself. Everyday I wonder how to survive the next few days. Even if I do earn extra like getting bonus, they won't last very long and my attempt to save will be futile because it will go into the household expenses because everything is just getting so expen...

The people in Hollywood glamorized marriage and they are also responsible for glamourizing divorce as well. However, I still think that marriage is a beautiful thing, though for some, the beauty ends at the wedding ceremony itself. I believe that we ought to have a life partner to take care of us in our senior years. However, it is not easy finding that life partner. Many girls are finding the wrong one and sadly they are still holding on to them for the sake of not being single or to be blamed upon if the relationship goes awry. A message that I wish to convey to them, you deserve happiness. If it is not working for you, perhaps it is time to move on. You will meet new people, reconcile with old ones and who knows, even find your life partner among them. For me, as you know, haven't been so lucky in love. I used to think that maybe I'm not that pretty, slim and intelligent enough. But now, I don't really care about it anymore. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, ...

I've mentioned before that I am in the plus size range and I have always been in this range, though the sizes varies, haha. I have gone up to size 20 before and at one point of time, I actually worried because that was the biggest size, at least in Singapore :S Anyway, thankfully I went on a strict diet (remember, that no coconut milk diet?! *weird*) and exercised vigorously at one point of time, I went down a few sizes. But still, I have always feared going into clothing shop and the people trailing so I normally go to those that don't have such creepy salespeople.  So I declare myself a non-fashionista. I don't follow fashion BUT I do observe what people wear in general and then when I like something, I get fixated about it, haha..like gosh, I wanna get the same one! Basically, I go through fashion phases and these phases can last a long long time, haha. Anyway, I like to mix and match. I like colours and I dislike brown though occasionally I do buy brown outfits, hrm....

I am so stuffed, I am amazed how I can still manage to blog. If you notice, I have been blogging using my blackberry. Not that I am lazy (well....), it is just that I can be so stuffed it's rather difficult to maneuver around except when I am in bed, heh.  Anyway, my mum's cooking prowess shows through this one week of break fast after whole day of fasting.  For those non-muslims who are just curious as to how fasting means, well honestly, I don't feel hungry ALL the time. I do feel a dip in energy level obviously as food provides energy but I can still go about doing my errands and working. I do also feel hunger pangs but they don't last very long and it will just go away without me realizing. As most of the time, I am working in air conditioned environment or that I am at home, I don't have annoying headaches that may come about as a result of lack of food and water but I have walked under blistering sun before (for instance, yesterday) and it can pose as a bit...

I work with teachers but I'm not a teacher. I actually work in the admin department and I like my job though sometimes it can be challenging especially when I feel swarmed by it. Or when my boss keeps calling me for work related stuffs especially when she is doing the approval for payment or vetting through. So, the headache. Anyway, I can honestly say most teachers are really nice though some are really driving me up the wall. That or they are just simply aint nice but then, it is also because of their personality. But as teachers, they are really dedicated. I also deal with parents and honestly, they can be demanding and very irritating and they are not scared of the higher authority in school. To them, they are being like that all because they care for their children but they are overbearing as if they don't let their children make mistakes and learn. Plus, whatever their children said, they believe every bit of their story though they are not there to see for themselves an...

I work with teachers but I'm not a teacher. I actually work in the admin department and I like my job though sometimes it can be challenging especially when I feel swarmed by it. Or when my boss keeps calling me for work related stuffs especially when she is doing the approval for payment or vetting through. So, the headache. Anyway, I can honestly say most teachers are really nice though some are really driving me up the wall. That or they are just simply aint nice but then, it is also because of their personality. But as teachers, they are really dedicated. I also deal with parents and honestly, they can be demanding and very irritating and they are not scared of the higher authority in school. To them, they are being like that all because they care for their children but they are overbearing as if they don't let their children make mistakes and learn. Plus, whatever their children said, they believe every bit of their story though they are not there to see for themselves an...

I am currently nursing a bloated stomach because I didn't eat the whole day due to fasting and then ate quite a fair bit at dinner time. It is a normal affair for me in this month but after awhile, will get so used to it. But whatever it is, bless this holy month for all muslims around the world. The thing about fasting is that you actually don't feel as hungry or peckish as when before the fasting month. Well I don't about the rest but I certainly don't though I admit it took me a long while before I am used to it. I just come to the conclusion that come break fast time, I will be able to eat and drink anyway and it is not as if I have to fast right until night time. I just have to also preoccupy my time wisely so that I don't have to think about hunger and thirst. If I'm not working, I will usually take a nap but then it is not really encouraged for us to take long naps because it is not as if you are going to die. You are merely fasting and life goes on as p...

Let me begin with a back story. I used to be one of those people who couldn't care less about her beauty regime despite repeatedly being told that it is essential. Although now I have put into practice moisturising my skin, face and body, to me they don't come naturally. But whatever the excuse, it has to be done. When you learn to program that in your head, it will come naturally. But forgive my brain, it doesn't work so well. Anyway, I thank God for finally kicking senses into myself, probably after being influenced by the people around me. I know I can never match up to them in terms of their beauty product knowledge but to me, practicing is more important. While the face may appear younger making people to happily think that you are younger, the neck can be a dead giveaway. Why is that? Very often, people may slather moisturizer and toner on the face but they can skip the neck thinking that it is alright to leave it. Not true. When you cleanse and moisturise your face,...