Lookback in 2007 pt 2
Wah...tiring recapping all this crap. Anyhoo, was saying about my mum but I think it was a good thing in a way now that my mum knows about it, I dont have to pretend that we have this much of money anymore and she did help in her own ways to make things a bit bearable.
But still, it was not good enough. In October, I found myself doing the hardest thing ever which was selling things close to my heart. But when you're struggling, and it's not just affecting you, I guess you just have to swallow the pill and make things better. In the midst of my struggle, I also learn that I am capable of being strong when the situation calls for it and somehow, it also makes me a better person and sees life in a different way.
Of course, I still continued to struggle through even after receiving my pay after 5 long freaking weeks of pure torture! But I did not find myself having to sell my things away though I had come close to it. God is great and He helped me and He opened up some people's hearts to help me tide over the bad times. Like how a colleague said that if our intention is good, then God will see to it and help us along the way. But we also have to learn to help ourselves first and in the midst of all this, I learnt to be thick skinned coz I just had to.
And then back to work. So, there was final confirmation already that our department had been outsourced and after Dec 31st, Im no longer working at Health Promotion Board. It was hard to swallow coz..as much as I dont enjoy the department, but I cant deny its benefits and the environment which is nice and comfy. Still, life goes on and the good news, is that I dont go home empty handed and on that day itself in the evening, I received a substantial amount of money as compensation. But, since I wont be having any pay since I only start my work on the 21st of Jan, which makes my next pay in Feb, I will have to be careful of my expenditures. What Im worried is the little expenditures that will me lose track a bit so from now, I will have to be extra careful and dont want to end up broke again like straight after my recent bonus.
In October and early part of November, my brother was sitting for his PSLE and it had been the greatest source of stress ever. I really wanted him to go to express stream and not just make it to the secondary school. Now, please dont accuse me of being hard on him but Singapore in the future is going to get even more competitive than now and I dont want him to be left behind. Im not being kiasu but if I dont give him an early start to work hard, his efforts are just going to be so-so..or barely passing through.
It was not an easy ride and his teacher was merely giving worksheets after worksheets but didnt really give him an individual attention so I had to be like some kind of surrogate teacher to him. Very tiring trying to cope with both work and his studies but I wanted to forgo tuition coz the fees were too high for me to handle so I had no other choice. The good news is that he passed his exams, including Maths, and managed to get to the express stream and when the school posting result came, he got his first choice which is nearby our home. He's starting tomorrow so it's going to be a different experience for him now.
Alright, early part of December, went through a series of training but I think the best one was the Attitude training. Gawd, the facilitator was hilarious and throughout my time at HPB (heh, first time Im revealing my workplace), he was the best despite being the age of 60, but he was so wise..yet so funny like his perception of life is so candid which makes me think that hey, we're lucky to be where we are. Hardships come and go but the important thing is that we must strive for better things to come.
Then in the midst of December, I got my bonus and then I got myself a new handphone to replace the one that I *sniff* sold off to tide over difficult times. But I didnt expect to get another slap in the face with another round of poverty when I spent quite a lot on my brother's sec one school needs. And like what I said earlier, never underestimate the small expenditures because they can make you lose focus and before you know it, you will be going like..where did my money go? So yah, Im being careful now.
December seemed to be quite a busy time for me too. Oh, I got myself a new job though it is still doing almost the same field work. But beggars cant be choosers and it's better to have a job than not to have one at all..at least during this time. I had to forgo a teacher's interview coz I had already signed the contract which let me to my delay in opening up the letter box causing me to miss the interview. But like I said earlier, sometimes things happen for a reason so I dont wish to comment about it.
I also realised that my initial thought why my current job title has Senior attached to it was because I had five working years of experience in this field. Turned out later via conversations with my colleagues..that it was because of the pay so not all of us have a senior posting. So....it could only mean that I will have to 'drop' the Senior title since it is going to be a telltale sign of my pay which may not be such a good idea coz my colleagues are quite known to be a little bit hard on people especially if they have been given some sort of unfair treatment. Wow, and here I am a bit excited that Im a..pfft..Senior.
But basically Im still stuck in the health line industry and being a serial snacker...though trying so hard to control it...Im not exactly a picture of health but then who cares. I have lost some colleagues coz we have gone our separate ways but I will always remember them...all the good times we had. I shall blog more about this and include some 'goodbye' photos coz seriously, we took..a LOT.
Other things worth mentioning is that well..this year, Im into the group called The Fray as you can tell from the blogskin. When last year's theme song for me was from Jason Mraz, this year is How to Save a Life from The Fray. Unlike many others who discovered this song via popular TV dramas like One Tree Hill, Grey's Anatomy and Scrubs, I discovered it through the radio. Isaac's unique and warmth voice lights up my mood and their song puts me through hard times. Coming close to this song is another single of theirs which is Look After You. Very beautiful. Hrm, I think I got another idea on what this month's blogskin theme is..heh..
I started watching Tv a bit more with shows like Ugly Betty, Supernatural and Heroes. Im a big Hiro and Sylar fan. Hiro's cute and Sylar...though he's a serial killer...he does have this sensitive side which unfortunately, got twisted..no thanks to his mum who thought that he should be..well..more than just a watchmaker..like an investment banker or even a President. I also started to develop an interest in indie films or shorts and frequently trawl youtube for video clips of American dramas and soap operas.
In conclusion, I wouldnt say that I achieve that much in 2007 but I went through quite a lot of emotionally charged situations so Im quite challeged in ways that went beyond my maturity. Only time will tell if that makes me a better person putting meaning into my life. Of course, I do want to achieve some things in 2008 and will also try my best not to repeat the mistakes I have made in 2007.
Happy New Year to all!!
But still, it was not good enough. In October, I found myself doing the hardest thing ever which was selling things close to my heart. But when you're struggling, and it's not just affecting you, I guess you just have to swallow the pill and make things better. In the midst of my struggle, I also learn that I am capable of being strong when the situation calls for it and somehow, it also makes me a better person and sees life in a different way.
Of course, I still continued to struggle through even after receiving my pay after 5 long freaking weeks of pure torture! But I did not find myself having to sell my things away though I had come close to it. God is great and He helped me and He opened up some people's hearts to help me tide over the bad times. Like how a colleague said that if our intention is good, then God will see to it and help us along the way. But we also have to learn to help ourselves first and in the midst of all this, I learnt to be thick skinned coz I just had to.
And then back to work. So, there was final confirmation already that our department had been outsourced and after Dec 31st, Im no longer working at Health Promotion Board. It was hard to swallow coz..as much as I dont enjoy the department, but I cant deny its benefits and the environment which is nice and comfy. Still, life goes on and the good news, is that I dont go home empty handed and on that day itself in the evening, I received a substantial amount of money as compensation. But, since I wont be having any pay since I only start my work on the 21st of Jan, which makes my next pay in Feb, I will have to be careful of my expenditures. What Im worried is the little expenditures that will me lose track a bit so from now, I will have to be extra careful and dont want to end up broke again like straight after my recent bonus.
In October and early part of November, my brother was sitting for his PSLE and it had been the greatest source of stress ever. I really wanted him to go to express stream and not just make it to the secondary school. Now, please dont accuse me of being hard on him but Singapore in the future is going to get even more competitive than now and I dont want him to be left behind. Im not being kiasu but if I dont give him an early start to work hard, his efforts are just going to be so-so..or barely passing through.
It was not an easy ride and his teacher was merely giving worksheets after worksheets but didnt really give him an individual attention so I had to be like some kind of surrogate teacher to him. Very tiring trying to cope with both work and his studies but I wanted to forgo tuition coz the fees were too high for me to handle so I had no other choice. The good news is that he passed his exams, including Maths, and managed to get to the express stream and when the school posting result came, he got his first choice which is nearby our home. He's starting tomorrow so it's going to be a different experience for him now.
Alright, early part of December, went through a series of training but I think the best one was the Attitude training. Gawd, the facilitator was hilarious and throughout my time at HPB (heh, first time Im revealing my workplace), he was the best despite being the age of 60, but he was so wise..yet so funny like his perception of life is so candid which makes me think that hey, we're lucky to be where we are. Hardships come and go but the important thing is that we must strive for better things to come.
Then in the midst of December, I got my bonus and then I got myself a new handphone to replace the one that I *sniff* sold off to tide over difficult times. But I didnt expect to get another slap in the face with another round of poverty when I spent quite a lot on my brother's sec one school needs. And like what I said earlier, never underestimate the small expenditures because they can make you lose focus and before you know it, you will be going like..where did my money go? So yah, Im being careful now.
December seemed to be quite a busy time for me too. Oh, I got myself a new job though it is still doing almost the same field work. But beggars cant be choosers and it's better to have a job than not to have one at all..at least during this time. I had to forgo a teacher's interview coz I had already signed the contract which let me to my delay in opening up the letter box causing me to miss the interview. But like I said earlier, sometimes things happen for a reason so I dont wish to comment about it.
I also realised that my initial thought why my current job title has Senior attached to it was because I had five working years of experience in this field. Turned out later via conversations with my colleagues..that it was because of the pay so not all of us have a senior posting. So....it could only mean that I will have to 'drop' the Senior title since it is going to be a telltale sign of my pay which may not be such a good idea coz my colleagues are quite known to be a little bit hard on people especially if they have been given some sort of unfair treatment. Wow, and here I am a bit excited that Im a..pfft..Senior.
But basically Im still stuck in the health line industry and being a serial snacker...though trying so hard to control it...Im not exactly a picture of health but then who cares. I have lost some colleagues coz we have gone our separate ways but I will always remember them...all the good times we had. I shall blog more about this and include some 'goodbye' photos coz seriously, we took..a LOT.
Other things worth mentioning is that well..this year, Im into the group called The Fray as you can tell from the blogskin. When last year's theme song for me was from Jason Mraz, this year is How to Save a Life from The Fray. Unlike many others who discovered this song via popular TV dramas like One Tree Hill, Grey's Anatomy and Scrubs, I discovered it through the radio. Isaac's unique and warmth voice lights up my mood and their song puts me through hard times. Coming close to this song is another single of theirs which is Look After You. Very beautiful. Hrm, I think I got another idea on what this month's blogskin theme is..heh..
I started watching Tv a bit more with shows like Ugly Betty, Supernatural and Heroes. Im a big Hiro and Sylar fan. Hiro's cute and Sylar...though he's a serial killer...he does have this sensitive side which unfortunately, got twisted..no thanks to his mum who thought that he should be..well..more than just a watchmaker..like an investment banker or even a President. I also started to develop an interest in indie films or shorts and frequently trawl youtube for video clips of American dramas and soap operas.
In conclusion, I wouldnt say that I achieve that much in 2007 but I went through quite a lot of emotionally charged situations so Im quite challeged in ways that went beyond my maturity. Only time will tell if that makes me a better person putting meaning into my life. Of course, I do want to achieve some things in 2008 and will also try my best not to repeat the mistakes I have made in 2007.
Happy New Year to all!!
Comments