"Living Each Single Day"

Before I start convulsing while watching a certain clip from youtube currently, (one of those camp movies..read: crap), actually it did have a nice end to it. Thank God. If not the convulsing would be for nothing. Besides that, early this week I just did a search on a movie which I tried to find on youtube to watch it in full previously, but failed, and it turned out..just my luck..someone posted the entire thing mere days ago. Of course I was very happy...and kinda busted my sleeping hours to watch it. It's about friendship and how they actually bonded based on the circumstance that they were in though each one differed vastly from one another. And this bond further strengthed by playing softball even though they sucked (but their coach begged to differ..) and eventually the only time they won was when they had to play against a bunch of ailing senior citizens in contrast to their previous game played against the firefighters. Okay I admit I was a bit distracted by the lead actor ...

And so it still does rain on me..... It has been almost a month since I started work at this new place and believe me....it still feels a bit lonesome..almost awkward and I realised it was no longer the case of missing my ex colleagues. That has been put aside a long time ago because I was ready to move on after five years. Now I just think because I felt lonely as I was the only newbie around in the general office and the one who came in before me...came in like five years ago. There was no one to actually hang around like some newbies' club as we learn things together, make mistakes together and basically just bond together. My colleague told me that it is normal to make mistakes in the first month and she herself had made several mistakes and had been scolded upside down for them. But she said, she didnt take it to heart because all the scoldings were a reminder to her to not let it happen again. I was, so called lucky, in the sense that I had not been scolded badly but...I was ...

I...should blog..but i have no freaking idea what to blog about... except.... rahayu is very happy (dont sue me for the third person talk...) but Im officially out of being broke! woohoo! and I actually got MORE than I expected..looooooooove it!

Eh, I think it's quite a sad fact that Im more knowledgable in tv dramas and reality tv shows across the globe but not in Singapore. I dont even know what goes on in Channel 5. But then again, who cares. I know I blogged about Jo Weil (the handsome boyfriend of mine as pictured above) and thought that he's oh-so-cute. Taking about guys, my brother came up with a nickname recently for such guys which I sometimes asked him to take a peek at over at my pc and of course in which he is more often NOT interested in. He calls them 'hunkabalooza'..and a typical verse of his will go like 'Im not interested in your HUNKABALOOZAS lah!' and whenever he sees Ronnie on youtube or see his picture, he will chant in the background..'Ronnie is gay..gay..gay..gay...' Brothers=Annoying Little Pests As much as I think Jo Weil is good looking with the typical dark handsome look, I have a weeeee bit problem with his kissing. I ah..associate it with slobbering. U want me to be ...

Okay i got a little confession to make...(and no, Im not going to bore u with the fact that Im STILL broke!)..I actually am a fan of the singer MIKA. If you need a little pick-me-up kind of cd that makes you sing in high falseto or.err....just sing along to the chorus, this is a great album. I admit I dont have his album but I have a few of his songs and maybe..now now, dont be shy...you have some of them in your mp3 player or ipod. Now, I know there is this little hot piece of gossip that MIKA leans towards his kind (and no Im not going to elaborate further on it). What's up with you people stereotyping guys singing in high pitch?! The lead singer of rock band Incubus, the hottie hot hot one is, bisexual with higher inclination towards guys and he doesnt sing like he's wearing tight pants. He doesnt want to discuss his sexuality because it's a private thing but like what my brother said, who cares if he's ___ as long as he makes great music. I train him well...*smirks*...

What the heck happened to the internet at school? Hrmph..it seems that it is not doing its job properly! Then again, it could just be Monday blues...just like me...onlie difference is that...I experience blues every day...until I get money..or at least get paid. Dang! Hate my life right now.

Yay! Now I have another soap drama to keep up with and it's yet another German drama which has an ongoing story compared to the last one which has stopped. See, the thing about such soap dramas is that they have few storylines within one drama itself but onlie one or two is worth watching..heh. And these are usually the more popular ones which fans of the show usually upload into popular websites such as youtube, dailymotion and others. How I come across such shows is either by chance or when Im surfing around fan sites or blogging sites, they will talk about them and post up pictures or videos of them and I just do my own searching if I want to see more of them. Currently, Im waiting for this independent film to be released onto vcd and then hoping for people to upload the vcd files into a torrent website. From this website, I will then be able to download these torrent files onto my own PC for my own viewing pleasure. It's like ripping songs from a CD and then uploading these...

Okay... so im back to blogging but it doesnt mean that life is back to normal for me again. It's just that I cant keep away from blogging for long I guess. Plus, I cant keep my fans waiting for long, can i? (as if..) You know how sometimes in life, you have planned for things to be like this or like this whether in the long term or the short term and then everything goes awry. Im not saying about my dream to become a teacher...has somehow ended....but God gave me something else instead that doesnt let me to directly get involved with the children which I think is a pretty decent move to keep me from being stepped all over. Im a softie in general and I dislike scolding children...unless they are too much and deserve a little scolding as I morph into a big bad wolf. So far, only a handful of children had made me morph into that during my preschool screening days. You know, those spoilt brats kind. Well, you get some, you lose some...or you dont get anything at all. Of course, at this...

Im not a sucker for colourful text but just to cheer up another dreary entry, shall just 'brighten' it up a bit. I cant seem to blog at home coz im either too tired or my brother is hogging the computer WHILE doing his homework. Tired tired tired...I need to wake up! I have lost my sense of ramblings. So depressed..... Talking about depression, Dewie is in the bottom 3 again for the fourth time and he is up against someone who is in the bottom 3 for the first time. And it's a girl. But based on the video trailer, people were assuming that he was still in the running while Sharon would be thrown out. Dewie! Hang in there.. As for myself, dunno for how long I would be able to hang on...haiz..............................

To tell you the truth, Im at the lowest point of my life right now. Absolutely lowest point. Words cant describe what Im going through right now emotionally except that Im scared stiff of what is to come. I just hope my glimmer of hope will come very soon. Anyway, despite being so down in the dumps, I actually have this precognition of my future blogskin. Okay maybe not. I only had a rough idea. Im just attracted to the lyrics of the song Lollipop by MIKA: '' Sucking too hard on your lollipop, Or love's gonna get you down" Okay Im more interested in the concept of sucking a lollipop. Dont Ask. Oh well, here's a preview of my upcoming blogskin: If this design has a name, it's called 'boredom at its best..when you're feeling so low in life'. Or simply, 'life sucks'. Im so not looking forward to work. I dislike working especially when Im not PAID YET!

As promised, pictures from the DnD (Dinner and Dance) nite held by my previous employer. Now now..if you wanna make fun of my outfit, please proceed to the comments area. Other than that, there was one person whom I caught sniggering at my outfit. Yes yes snigger all u want you cheap ah-go-go woman U!.. Anyway she's a waste of my time. Nothing else can preoccupy my mine at that except what was coming up later on the menu. Dance the night away! P.S: Im not a complete loser anyway. I got $60 worth of NTUC vouchers as a gift and also as a lucky draw prize. Woohoo!! These vouchers came in damn handy for me especially when buying the groceries.

Hiya!... I dont know why im so cheerio..maybe coz i got free bag? No no...I dont know..AHA!! But I think that it's because today is FRIDAY!!! TGIF! TGIF! I miss my ex colleagues. I think Im suffering in what you call..err...workplace blues. I was ranting to my mum few days ago (in my sick mode) about how lonely it is at my workplace..I got no friends to talk to...blah blah....and my mum was telling me I made an irrational decision about leaving my previous work. But come to think of it, when part of my brain cells began recovering already (though Im still officially not well yet)..I realised that my colleagues and also my previous working life were not as good as back then in HPB.  Life back then was better but people complained a lot about having to go back to office under the sun sunny weather. And then we just had to have this outsourcing thing that affected our department  and then we were hit  by reality  that we took things for granted all this time. For ...

I sometimes feel like Im fighting a losing battle. I try to stay on top of things in terms of financial affairs when it comes to my family but I do feel like Im about to drown too. Why am I being so philosophical this morning? Besides trying to wake up from the fact that I...did not get my salary today (am very sad about it)..Im thinking about how am I going to survive my family. Okay frankly speaking, I do have backup plans which DO NOT involve selling stuffs this time. I actually still have some savings left but Im just worried how long it would last as I have no idea for how long it will be able to help us through such times like this. Alas, life is so unpredictable. Eurgh...hate the feeling. Anyway, that aside, I actually sacrificed 5 minutes of my time this morning of going to work (which led me to miss one whole line of potential buses that I could take) just to watch a bit of soap drama. Well, it was a pinnacle point of the storyline so I just HAD to watch it. It was aired yest...

I cant believe broken social scene came to Singapore! (besides Harry Connic Jr aka the GoRgeous psychopath). Too bad I cant watch them coz the ticket costs $118 and I did not manage to get a sponsor in time. In case you dont know, I also like indie music and I think this is a great band which hailed from Canada. I got to know this song and then the band when I was watching one of the episodes of a certain show from america via youtube. It just blended in well with the theme of that time when two lovers reunited. Dont ask me to explain further. Anyway, I thought the song was really nice. Some sort of really nice ode to the couple. Here's a preview of the song..but this one was sung by a female singer. Infact, it's the same singer who sung the theme from ipod nano...Feist..who is a rising star with the song '1,2,3,4'. She's from that band and if they can churn out a wonderful singer like that, it just explains a lot about the band who are notoriously known for switchi...

Boo! Now that Mariah is not online and has gone to do some PR stuff on some event, im back to being bloody bored. I came across this in a blog.. A typing speed test. Unbelievable..I was ranked ' position 173018 of 1037215' in the test! Well, at least it was accurate in my typing speed which is 74 words per minute and I only got three words wrong. I like...this ofc keyboard. 74 words Speed test According to the website, if you can master the art of touch typing, you dont have to look at the keyboard to type anymore. And you can achieve a speed of 70 wpm. Try it! See how well you do!

Im still down with flu...but heck, that's besides the point. I was supposed to blog about this..about my brother. He's not exactly a topic of interest but nevertheless, he actually made me proud! And that doesnt happen all the time you know. He is actually in the top ten of his class! UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!! He recently sat for his common tests and in between, he also had class tests. When combined, he actually did really well for his Maths..he got a freaking 94 out of 100!!!!! He was surprised when his name was called out as among the top ten. Well duh..Anyway, if you think that the hard work mostly come from me, actually not really. Yes I did teach him if he wanted help but most of the time, he was on his own. I noticed that he would practise using the questions from his textbook before proceeding with his homework. There were times when he could not get the answers right and he was screaming like some mad person. So I had to teach him and see where he went wrong (or I cant play...

So...Im totally bored. And somehow I really miss my colleagues...all the 'rah-rahs'...the fun...the laughter...and Im stuck in this rather dry place where everyone is so serious. Okay so Im complaining coz I dont have work to do coz im still a freshie and this being the March holidays, there are no pesky students and calls to keep myself entertained. I dont know why...but I suddenly have the urge to sing the national anthem of US of A. *singing*... Oh, say! can you see by the dawn's early light fortunately, I can only sing the first line....

Okay...I managed to grab some photos from my ex colleagues' friendsters and yes, it is a good thing they dont know I have this blog. About my dress, uhm...a close ex colleague of mine gave it to me as a present earlier that day and she wanted me to wear it for the DnD. Because it has always been her dream to see me wear something else other than the usual tops I wore. Unfortunately, my mum was also in agreement that I wore the blouse although I did think it did not fit well with the whole retro theme. Knowing my mum, she's just happy it's not tight fitting..like..pfft..as if I always wear like that. So seriously, I..dont have a choice. But anyway, enjoy the pictures for now before I upload those from my phone.

hello.. Rahayu is officially under the weather. No thanks to coke intake though I still think I should blame my brother because he was sick first..heh. Supposed to put up photos of the DnD in the office right now since Im freaking bored and that now is holidays so there isn't much to do for a newbie like me. Oh who am I kidding...there ISNT any work for me. I forgot to bring the wire so too bad, have to do at home if I can snatch some computer time without my flu bug ransacks my body system after which I will have to wave the white flag. Bored...Bored....Bored. Oh, entertainment news update: dewie bottom three again.In baseball, that would be strike three and you're out! But like he said and according to the opinions of others also, the girls posed the biggest threat. Well, it's no surprise but wouldn't it be nice for a male model to win instead? hrm? I know it's a female dominated industry. Still, there are also exceptions right? Especially if he has a cute pouty f...

Stoopid...this is why I have this on and off love affair with soap dramas. Very the DRAMA!! Just when you thought it is all back to fuzzy wuzzy when it comes to two people being in love..out of love...in again (I sound like Im weaving through a traffic jam)..and then wham! Some twist in the plot kills the relationship or stall it and then you will be left wondering why you bother staying true to the storyline in the first place. Already I stopped watching this german soap drama because apparently, someone decided to shift his focus on someone else that he knew before his current love interest. Oh well. Like someone commented, it was good when it lasted. All few episodes of it. And in another drama, it seemed that a spoiler (future plot in the story line) that leaked via the internet, apparently is coming true. Darn it! Relax..chill...well, at least there's a weeeee bit of progress in this other UK soap drama. Hrm, it seems that I catch up with other soapies but not Korean soap dram...

Hrm, I actually have like almost five minutes to blog this piece, believe it or not. I self imposed myself this so that I can watch a bit of youtube..hee. That pesky brother lah..took up my computer time just now. And I was also uploading the files for my friend Mariah. Anyhoo, as you know....monday yesterday (since im typing this out after midnight already) I started work! Woohoo! I had to go all the way to Maxwell Road for the induction which was basically an introduction to the ministry. Well, unfortunately, since I have officially started work with this ministry, I am not able to tell which one is it though you may have got the answer in the earlier posts. Not coz Im so top secret....but it's just blogging ethic. And you're wondering why it rained. That's coz rahayu not being herself tonight..haha.. Okay! It was nerve wrecking prior to coming in to the school but the nervousness somehow faded away when... dum de dum dum... I got my own freaking cubicle space! with own p...

I realised I have yet to put up a sidebar to post up the links to the songs i have uploaded. I shall put it up soon aight? So mariah! your songs as requested.. ferras - hollywood not america ferras - aliens and rainbows duffy - mercy The last two files are a little bigger than normal coz I tried to save it under a different format prior to converting it to see what is the diff. If it takes up too much space, let me know but next time I'll use the format I have been using to reduce the file size. Happy listening!

Before I begin with an update of my own personal life..here's some............ you guessed it! Entertainment News Update: Yes Dewie..(spelling changed in accordance to his real name Ronnie)..is not in the bottom 3, again! Yay! Been doing great this bff of mine. Well, he got his priorities right by asking the experienced panel of judges which included two former supermodels on how to improve his performance and he got it good! But not all is well as his bff on the show, Ben, has hurt him a bit with his name calling. He actually called Dewie a girl! Well done Ben. Dewie got upset because growing up, he also had to endure such hurtful name calling but now, knowing that it came from none other than his bff on the show, somehow that pain was doubled. Maybe coz Ben was also hurt that Dewie thought that his performance last week was the weakest from the rest when asked by the judges. Tit for Tat, no? No matter what Dewie, you did great by being in the top 3. See, I told you that Ben is no...

Here's wishing..my boyfriend...Jensen Ackles...a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! He turns 30! Ooh..big new number...but don worrie hun, guys get sexier after 30. Just look at my other boyfriend, David Caruso. I managed to catch a snapshot of him of waking up on my bed in the morning of his birthday.. Wakey! Wakey!!