"Living Each Single Day"

well..today i want to put my life back in order such as some work related stuffs..uhm...more like things that are so freaking backdated by a few months, I have managed to put them in order. of course im just halfway through but at least I cleared up those that needed to be cleared first coz it has been taking way too long. Or at least before they discovered most of their statistic pages for the past two months were missing..no thanks to me...haha..But i'll put it back tomorrow!! currently im reading this compilation of articles written by a local columnist. at first, when i read her articles back then in the newspapers, I thought that she was milking the fact that she was single. To me, it's not an issue at all because we just have not found that someone who fill up the void in our life. But as I read through her articles, I would say that she was somewhat....like me. Trying to decipher what others meant and not taking whatever they say flat down. Hopeful...but not too hopeful....

open letter to bugger: well babe, it's been really nice knowing you..even though we may act like friends (you still owe me bubble tea you freak! k k..shall be nice) sometimes i think that we're not but just mere colleagues. i tried to treat you like in a more professional way from the way i talk to you but who am I to fool you. Okay, it didnt work either coz it will just open up an opportunity to 'bash' me up with words. above all, you're like one of the nicest guys i know and as your so called friend, I do admire you sometimes coz I dunno...all the drivers I know are either ugly or old. So it was admiration by default. you colour my blog with entries regarding yourself which speaks nothing but your adoration of your own self. No Den, you can never be compared to the hunks in the pictures you saw. Not even in ten years. So forget it. Im sad that you're leaving and hope that you're here to stay for at least until end of the year. Yes I do get annoyed with you...

forget manicures. my fingers are so much in a sorry state right now coz of rashes that got worse and worse. But it's recovering pretty fast actually after I used this new tube of medicine from the doc..yes...the doc who has a busy night life who apparently forgot to prescribe this medicine until i asked his assistant for it. I hate to say this about you doc..but you used to be good looking but alamak, what happen now? I can see that you still try to maintain your err..youth...by spotting a what...new ear stud right now? Oh, and standing while tucking in your shirt blouse right after you press the door bell for me to come in is still a big fat NO!! geez.... Anyway, the end of the month has approached and I have to tighten my belt a bit when it comes to expenditures. Gosh, things are so expensive nowadays that money is akin to water..diluted before you can actually see where it is going. I just hope my mum doesnt have any plans of hers to use money on a whim and then expect to have t...

my favourite song..i just love his voice! so soothing..if i can for one guy who is not that good looking but has God given voice like this, I'LL TAKE HIM..NO QUESTIONS ASKED!!!

Being under the sniffy...aka...having cold...can only afford to provide you with this... the return of my pre pubescent crush!!! doesnt he look better than before? like he lost weight or something..or that he shaved off that irritating little goatie of his..you dont have to look older for me, my lurve... now now mariah..dont start with the 'hes gay' thingey..coz hes not!

im feeling under the weather....and it's not a very nice feeling even though i overcome the initial throat infection quite fast in just a day. That was considering i ran out of doctors' prescribed lozenges long ago. i was blogging about something half way but got too tired coz i think the issue was a bit the serious. It was just a response to mariah's article on gay guys. Well, the only summary i can give in regards to the AIDs epidemic being largely due to the growing gay population...well....i would say that it's not the only reason. It's a culmination of different factors and not forgetting that it is due to the popular myth that only gays will get AIDs which lead to the problem being even more massive than before especially among the heterosexuals. It can happen among heterosexuals especially if they switch partners ever so often. SO seriously, there is no point finger pointing right now as to which is the actual cause. Just think about our children who are the ...

So...... mariah found out someone is gay..and man, what a big fat loss to our single community!! I dont believe this..but please repent! bertaubat lah!! coz i think he's not worth making the 'crossover'..actually he's worth it in all the right places but...RAHAYU NEEDS YOU!!!! YOU'RE MY ONLY HOPE.. how bloody desperate can I get? seriously, the guy's cherubic face..(i blushed whenever i saw him! he's super cute! and he's malay! i dont do that to malay guys!!!) and rosy cheeks must be the pull factor for guys who are..well..you know...gay...but of all the men, why you?!! wenworth i can take it..but why YOU?!! oh my cherubic little angel.....i hope that whoever they spotted you with is just some passerby who took a liking to you or just a gatal male colleague of yours who touched in the sensitive areas and then people assumed you are like him. DRATS!!!!! I dont know why im sounding upset when all this while I am not against gay love but it will be silly of...

the other time i wanted to write some serious stuffs on my blog. well...you know how im always short of cash when it comes to spending for my family coz it's not easiy taking care of one..i can tell you that. i guess thats why im quite reluctant to start my own family because im not that up to it. now that my father is also taking his medicine regularly, every month i have to make my way to the hospital to get his medicine supply. it's not something that i mind..really....but it can be a financial burden. i was so lucky..and i asked God to help me out that hopefully the doctor would see him last monday even though his appointment had been pushed forward to august. it was the earliest date that they could give. my cashflow was so low that i had to change the previous appointment date and i was reluctant to do so knowing that his medicine supply will be affected as it was running low. the pharmacy would only release the medicine upon instruction by the doctor. I cant just go ther...

haha..it will set you free..bwahahaha...I love this perez website! yup, apparently if things come from here, you know the deal....sorry wentworth fans.. bwhahahahaha... wentworth miller - perez hilton's take

I dont know anything about the show Grey's Anatomy but being on the subject of why some good looking guys are simply either taken or ... gay...I kinda got to hear some interesting news about one of their lead characters. I watched snippets of this show called brothers and sisters on youtube and one of the brothers is gay and in the first few episodes, he started dating this guy called scotty. Apparently, according to the comments left by the viewers, the actor playing Kevin's boyfriend..is actually rumoured to be gay in real life and then get this....is also the rumoured boyfriend of T R Knight who came out late last year after he was being called a faggot by one of the co stars. Obviously he could not take the swipe at him because 'faggot' is a big no no term for gays in general as it is considered offensive to them. However that is not important including who the heck is T R Knight and that faggot rhymes with maggot. If the rumour is true, I would say what gorgeous pa...

I feel so lethargic. Nowadays it's not every day I get to make it back to office so i've missed gym for the last one and a half week. Even if I do, it will not be a convenient time like go back to office early morning and then go outfield an hour later. Seriously, it's not a big deal like world hunger or something if Im not able to make it but it's just that....it takes a toll on me physically and mentally. Maybe im just imagining things but I guess once it has become a habit and you steer clear of it due to unforeseen circumstances, your imagination can turn wild. Ok im just consoling myself here..which by the way..is not working. SO tomorrow, I may have to scrap that plan again regarding eating at secret recipe and indulging in the banana chocolate cake. Well, it helps one of them cannot make it....again..haha..so instead of being angry about it, I might as well go to gym as planned before that. Much to my surprise..despite my sporadic moment of overeating due to enga...

actually..I wrote about bugger yesterday but it turned out to be the start of a gripping essay..bwahahaha!! no, I actually wrote that I chat with him via msn last friday and so now, officially he has invaded my favourite world of solitude...the internet...after office working hours. And I thought he was the one who said that he just wanted to add me but not talk..and gee..who started the ball rolling? And guess what..he is still the bugger that he is...with a conversation full of emoticons (which doesnt really get into my good books..veering towards total annoyance). he said a 'hey..' followed by a nudge..you know that thing that sorta makes your window vibrates. In this case, since he sent the nudge at the start of the little window at the side prompting a conversation from someone, my pc got stuck a bit. And then when I said I got the shock of my life (no..seriously), he laughed and did it again....on purpose. OH well..but anyway, conversing with him was quite fun coz it felt...

hello.... i just read this article in a magazine and she was over the moon about her ang moh boyfriend and he's a heck lot better than local chinese men. funny she should do the comparison considering she never dated any local chinese men before. Then her current boyfriend and ex boyfriends have been nice to her especially the current one who never failed to say how beautiful she is even though I seriously beg to differ. I know Singaporean men are pretty narrow minded and they're not very gentlemenly especially when it comes to boarding the bus and no matter how heavy your load is, they SOMEHOW tried to squeeze through the side. I feel like im fighting for my life everytime I go up the bus. And they dont help to press the lift button when I go up too and there I am struggling to stick out a finger to press the button for my floor. But just like her, I love ang moh guys..purely coz they're so freaking good looking with out there features and i-like-to-pinch biceps. They are ...

man...the weather has been a killer for the past few days except today. it was hot hot hot all the way and it affected me physically..a.k.a..i look even more damn fugly lah! pimples sprouting on my face and my shoulders (Ack! there goes my boat neck blouses!) and my hair..frizzy, freshly washed or not, doesnt make any difference. today's rain had been rather hopeful and my umbrella had been in the 'storage' for so long that when I took it out finally, few threads came loose when the wind blew hard at it. good thing the bus stop was rather nearby. you know what i notice about my neighbourhood recently or even during the mrt rides to work? there's a sudden influx of ang mohs or caucasians ah! no..im not complaining coz if i do, i need to be slapped across the face for not appreciating their presence but then again do slap me if I look at other people's ang moh husbands who are so darn good looking. They have blended well into the heartlands that it can be quite a sig...

Im reading a book by Nicholas Sparks called A Walk to Remember borrowed from a colleague of mine coz I've been wanting to read it for so long but never got round to getting the book. Let's just say..Im not really into buying of books so when I got to know she had it, well....the rest is history. Now Im not really a voracious reader even though I wouldnt mind reading through a book but half way through I will find it a drag. I watched the movie before and I just felt like going straight into the middle where the juice of the story is and get it over and done with. But the novelty of it will be lost and I would not get to know the characters better which the movie merely skimmed through although knowing me, I'd rather you give me the gist of the character and I will be easily contented already. Im also not the type who would actually bother to read through from the start to find out what happen in the end. I have no qualms going through the back of the page to see what happen...

Actually, I have this other blog which I have been maintaining for almost a month that chronicles my life and my thoughts as a single young female. There is no sappy 'I need a boyfriend..fast!' story but just some frustrations that I let out when it comes to people's viewpoints on single people like me as if we're going through a streak of bad luck..being single. It's stupid lah...I mean...good for you if you have your other half but life still carry on for me. It also contain my viewpoints on Love which I feel is a pretty open concept and that doesnt mean I dont have a boyfriend, Im not being showered with enough love. It's a lot of bull seriously and like what I said in my previous previous entry, I dont need your pity too if no guy seems to pour out their inner desire to be with me for the rest of their freakin life. Yup! Happy reading..it's on my friendster account since I go there quite often so it makes sense to set up a blog there. my committed single...

Okay...Im so excited that they are gonna have this new show called Brothers and Sisters. I watched its video clips on youtube and it's pretty neat. But the main reason why I want to watch it is because I get to see Kevin on tv instead of this LCD monitor!!!! No, Kevin is not hunkalicious or drool worthy. You see, Im not that shallow all the time. I have a weak spot for average looking guys too. This show is about the Walker family which is pretty much in shambles after their father died. There are 6 siblings being taken care of a single mum but they're very well to do family and very well grown up too. The youngest is a dedicated army guy which the mum worries most because you know lah...youngest wat. Then there is this workaholic sister who later will get engaged to a handsome looking democrat and in between some other sisters and brothers which I dunno much about coz Im not interested. And there's Kevin...a lawyer who has his fair share of relationships that dont always w...

I just had to comment about this... I watched this show called Illusi where..obviously..it's about magic and the unique thing about this is that it is performed by a local Malay magician. Now Im not gonna preach about how this is the works of the satan..black magic..blah blah...but I just got the chuckles over the whole conversation that sounds typically Singaporean. man to crane driver: 'ah huat! later you drop the box at the count of 3, okay?' crane driver: 'drop the box? but got man inside leh!' man: 'yah..just drop the box! after we count 1..2..3...' then after the deed had been done and the illusionist stood on the hood of the crane truck.. illusionionist (to the crowd there..): 'woi!' hahaha....

Let me introduce to you.... bugger saying hello and doing the bunny rabbit at the same time.. yes..thats BUGGER!!! Or D..as in his nick here..you know the annoying little pest that ive been talking about like I dunno...for months and more recently nowadays. I must admit he looks slightly older in the picture..bwahahaha!!! I didnt take the shot but a colleague of mine did which she bluetoothed to me without telling me what picture she bluetoothed. Recently, he has been a good help as in being more than just a driver but knowing him, it's just his way of manipulating by turning on his so-called charm and then 'pressurizing' me into finishing earlier so that he can collect faster. He also has questions for me regarding our work which he sometimes call to ask but I may not have all of the answers to his questions. Recently he asked why next month the schedule is tighter and I'd answer because this month is loose so next month they make it tighter la! Tsk..bothersome. I supp...

im happy.... im happy coz I no longer have to think if I can afford to give my family food after work..scrimping like crazy..just to make sure I have enough money to buy bread, tissue and whatsoever essential household. Thank You God for making my life easier now and at least not make me suffer...until my next pay. But even with the next pay, I will get a bit extra (it's a bonus thing..) and yet another month will pass by with less suffering. Provided I dont go on a wild shopping spree..which is unlikely actually considering that I think I suffered WAY enough. this is something that I will NOT take for granted and will act as per normal and not think that now I dont have to think thrice..but just twice maybe.... Im grateful for help like this because trust me, it can be difficult living on a single income and trying my very best not to affect them in any way. I also want to thank my mum for not being so demanding over the expenses too and helping me in ways that she can even thoug...

I....have decided to have this as a life long mission. Go 'yeah rite' all you want..but...I aim to be...sexy and cool..haha..And no, I want to give out that all womanly vibe in me without resorting to skimpy clothing or bust bursting tops. Actually, the second one is quite an option..but no...must....con.....trol...... I want to be the sort where I can just wear an ordinary looking shirt and with just a subtle make up and then a pair of sandals, but one look...I can derive attention from others, be it male or female. Hrm, sounds like a perfect excuse to get sloppy..haha..Anyway, I would have that 'look at me...I dont need to work a sweat to get attention from you'..hehe..like real. So! people...let's see, in this month of July, what can rahayu do to achieve at least 50% of her mission: 1. have great looking hair - very the vital. shampoo...condition...hair mask... now that I have got myself a conditioner that makes my hair less electrocuted looking, i think i can do...

Like what I've said before, I have been trying to follow closely this love saga thingey from a UK teen drama and while entertaining myself after one gripping storyline after another, Im starting to have this thing for british guys..haha... Okay...and they can be really good actors even though if the accent is too thick, I have problems understanding but they sound oh-so-sexy. Whats your take over ordinary looking guys of whom over the time will charm the socks off you and then you realise slowly why other girls are so hung up over them? Initially you're like..'huh? this kind of guy?!!' right? I think it's the same in real life where you would never thought that you will end up with the kind of guy who is average looking and not the type you just salivate over his looks. SLowly you will realise, hey...love is INDEED blind..haha..no, what I meant was, heck...you just have to look hard enough and beyond your expectations..at least the physical part (like for example, y...