Forbidden
you know what..I don't know if I am up to watching brokeback mountain. I know it's all so hyped up especially after its glorious wins at famous movie festivals that when it fell out to another movie during the oscars, it fell hard. narh, that's beside the point. Let's just take out the multi hype and the multi winnings and let us see the movie point blank. I had always wanted to watch the movie when it was screened here last year as I tot the sypnosis was rather heart wrenching and pretti unusual..two gay cowboys in love with each other only to be living in constant denial and pressured by the social norms.
well...i've always had this thing for love...in its different facets. I don't like the typical gorgeous boy in love with gorgeous girl...yawns..it's about time we face up to reality that not all of us were born with perfect genes. To tell you the truth, I didn't know how big brokeback mountain would be but if no one was moved by its storyline, then....I can't say much. Like how i am SO not into harry potter despite watching two of its instalments (and those decisions were not made by me..). I like clear storylines that are easy to understand...yet are heart wrenching enough or convincing enough to move me and these would only be achieved by clever lines and deep and thoughtful acting.
haha...i don't believe I just said those....coming from someone who used to worship spider-man part one. hey, still that wasn't just some genetically altered college guy who saved the day time and time again with his slick web slinging heroic acts. it was touching....a nerdy guy who had to battle not just the evil doers but his own personal life as he tried to grapple with reality and losing the people he loved in the process. and i can't help but drool also since cutie spidey was played by tobey maguire who oozes...guess what..not sex appeal but great acting talent. he sorta reminded me of jake gylenhaal who played one half of the gay cowboys in brokeback mountain. however, I never reallie watched jake or am so blissfully in love with him just as I had been with tobey. but he did tug at my heart string in the movie...as he tried to face up to reality that no one would accept his sexuality back then in the 60's just when he had dreams of them together with their very own ranch. damn those 60's people...who onlie worshipped james dean.
you remembered back then I was so much into the movie 'sepet'...which was based on a tragic love story between a malay girl who grew up in a middle class family and a chinese boy who struggled to make a living as a pirated vcd seller. Despite their relatively short courtship moments, it was those moments that left a lasting impression on each other as they found comfort in the world of their own.
yet again, this was another tragic love story as one died living behind the fresh scent from his shirt kept intact by the lover. the longing for someone who accepted him for who he was and for giving him true happiness (Err..i wasn't just talking about the sex)...as he struggled to be just like any other men with a wife and kids. In all those 20 years....the intimacy kept alive by their long duration of separation which only fanned the flames of their passion whenever they met each other annually. but they still slipped in and out of denial...yet loving each other to bits despite all the confusions as they let their feeling take over them and then contemplating over what they just did. somebody..kill me! i can't take this anymore!!!
but you know what....the part that affected me the mostest (besides ennis finding out about jack's death)...was the earlier part of their relationship when they had to go their separate ways. they were very much nonchalant about it..except jack...whose eyes gave way that he wanted this relationship so much or that he wanted to forget what they just did in the mountains..(hrm, how appropriate was the location..). Ennis, however, who was the more serious of the two wanted their short affair to end quickly because of a personal encounter during his childhood. He didn't want to end up like the cowboy of the same fate as his, whose life was ended tragically by people who thought he was some freak. No surprise he made the first move in moving away from jack and merely saying 'see ya around' so jack couldn't see how emotionally wrecked he was. He was about to throw his life away marrying a woman of whom his love wasn't as burning as that to jack. I think it was the nature of men lah...to still have their egos intact.....whoever their sexual desire is targetted at..haha..
okay, so that was it. separated...just like that...and us audience or readers of the short story..very much disappointed. I'd say if I was sitting right there in the movie theatre instead of being in the comfort of my own room...I would probably be crying buckets just seeing jack wipe away his single tear as he was driving his truck. Gawd...love can be so painful...can you imagine if there was no continuation to their newly blossomed love for each other?
Still, despite the movie portraying how the cowboys trudged through life by masking their loneliness, their secret love life and seeing how their marriage was slowly failing...I tot more could have been done. I mean...we really felt their characters but it got to a point where it was rather boring as there never seemed to be a development in their love life. It was nothing but struggle struggle and struggle in the other half of the movie as they were put under pressure by the closest parties who were not convinced that their annual gathering was to go fishing. Err...still fishing what...in the present context....like you know, reeling in the bait and then hooking up some big fish...bwahahaha! Okay..not funnie. Anyway, it is after all an adaptation and you know that an adaptation has to stick as much as possible to the original story or the essence would be lost.
Anyway, ang lee did a fantastic job in the movie showcasing the boys emotional turmoil instead of letting the audience sit in just to watch their sexual acts. Down boys!! Hey, this is no gay movie okay..it's a thought provoking movie..that if we take out the gay theme, it is still some bloody good love movie. Sometimes, like how i feel, such as what if deep inside me and another guy have feelings for each other but we each try to suppress those feelings as we go into self denial mode that we can never be good enough for each other. Then as years go by, and other people have caught our attention, it was never long enough for us to maintain them in our minds. We find that we are back to square one with that person but still nothing come out of the friendship bonded only by words and small physical gestures that are silent and last mere seconds. After that, it was though nothing had happened. It was just a few seconds hug...but a hug that carries a thousand words. GAH!...I dunno....love is a funny thing...yet it brings about an array of emotions till we are rendered helpless.
at this point of time, I think being single is a good thing..haha..
well...i've always had this thing for love...in its different facets. I don't like the typical gorgeous boy in love with gorgeous girl...yawns..it's about time we face up to reality that not all of us were born with perfect genes. To tell you the truth, I didn't know how big brokeback mountain would be but if no one was moved by its storyline, then....I can't say much. Like how i am SO not into harry potter despite watching two of its instalments (and those decisions were not made by me..). I like clear storylines that are easy to understand...yet are heart wrenching enough or convincing enough to move me and these would only be achieved by clever lines and deep and thoughtful acting.
haha...i don't believe I just said those....coming from someone who used to worship spider-man part one. hey, still that wasn't just some genetically altered college guy who saved the day time and time again with his slick web slinging heroic acts. it was touching....a nerdy guy who had to battle not just the evil doers but his own personal life as he tried to grapple with reality and losing the people he loved in the process. and i can't help but drool also since cutie spidey was played by tobey maguire who oozes...guess what..not sex appeal but great acting talent. he sorta reminded me of jake gylenhaal who played one half of the gay cowboys in brokeback mountain. however, I never reallie watched jake or am so blissfully in love with him just as I had been with tobey. but he did tug at my heart string in the movie...as he tried to face up to reality that no one would accept his sexuality back then in the 60's just when he had dreams of them together with their very own ranch. damn those 60's people...who onlie worshipped james dean.
you remembered back then I was so much into the movie 'sepet'...which was based on a tragic love story between a malay girl who grew up in a middle class family and a chinese boy who struggled to make a living as a pirated vcd seller. Despite their relatively short courtship moments, it was those moments that left a lasting impression on each other as they found comfort in the world of their own.
yet again, this was another tragic love story as one died living behind the fresh scent from his shirt kept intact by the lover. the longing for someone who accepted him for who he was and for giving him true happiness (Err..i wasn't just talking about the sex)...as he struggled to be just like any other men with a wife and kids. In all those 20 years....the intimacy kept alive by their long duration of separation which only fanned the flames of their passion whenever they met each other annually. but they still slipped in and out of denial...yet loving each other to bits despite all the confusions as they let their feeling take over them and then contemplating over what they just did. somebody..kill me! i can't take this anymore!!!
but you know what....the part that affected me the mostest (besides ennis finding out about jack's death)...was the earlier part of their relationship when they had to go their separate ways. they were very much nonchalant about it..except jack...whose eyes gave way that he wanted this relationship so much or that he wanted to forget what they just did in the mountains..(hrm, how appropriate was the location..). Ennis, however, who was the more serious of the two wanted their short affair to end quickly because of a personal encounter during his childhood. He didn't want to end up like the cowboy of the same fate as his, whose life was ended tragically by people who thought he was some freak. No surprise he made the first move in moving away from jack and merely saying 'see ya around' so jack couldn't see how emotionally wrecked he was. He was about to throw his life away marrying a woman of whom his love wasn't as burning as that to jack. I think it was the nature of men lah...to still have their egos intact.....whoever their sexual desire is targetted at..haha..
okay, so that was it. separated...just like that...and us audience or readers of the short story..very much disappointed. I'd say if I was sitting right there in the movie theatre instead of being in the comfort of my own room...I would probably be crying buckets just seeing jack wipe away his single tear as he was driving his truck. Gawd...love can be so painful...can you imagine if there was no continuation to their newly blossomed love for each other?
Still, despite the movie portraying how the cowboys trudged through life by masking their loneliness, their secret love life and seeing how their marriage was slowly failing...I tot more could have been done. I mean...we really felt their characters but it got to a point where it was rather boring as there never seemed to be a development in their love life. It was nothing but struggle struggle and struggle in the other half of the movie as they were put under pressure by the closest parties who were not convinced that their annual gathering was to go fishing. Err...still fishing what...in the present context....like you know, reeling in the bait and then hooking up some big fish...bwahahaha! Okay..not funnie. Anyway, it is after all an adaptation and you know that an adaptation has to stick as much as possible to the original story or the essence would be lost.
Anyway, ang lee did a fantastic job in the movie showcasing the boys emotional turmoil instead of letting the audience sit in just to watch their sexual acts. Down boys!! Hey, this is no gay movie okay..it's a thought provoking movie..that if we take out the gay theme, it is still some bloody good love movie. Sometimes, like how i feel, such as what if deep inside me and another guy have feelings for each other but we each try to suppress those feelings as we go into self denial mode that we can never be good enough for each other. Then as years go by, and other people have caught our attention, it was never long enough for us to maintain them in our minds. We find that we are back to square one with that person but still nothing come out of the friendship bonded only by words and small physical gestures that are silent and last mere seconds. After that, it was though nothing had happened. It was just a few seconds hug...but a hug that carries a thousand words. GAH!...I dunno....love is a funny thing...yet it brings about an array of emotions till we are rendered helpless.
at this point of time, I think being single is a good thing..haha..
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