Skip to main content

Much Ado About Nothing

So I finally established the fact that the guy whom I suspected might be crushing on me, has children. Okay I don't know if he has one, or two or the fact that he is married but all I know is that I am cleared. I know you're thinking what is the big deal like what is wrong in him liking me. Nothing wrong, but it does seem awkward for someone to be interested in me especially if I don't have any interest in the person although I am trying to be more open minded a bit this year in order to make new guy friends.

However, I will have to cross out chatting because at some point I chat so much in my younger days that I am put off by the idea of chatting..haha. I might give it a go, one day eventually, but I guess I have chatted with so many kinds of people, even met them to some extent, so I'm like yah, I'm so over this.

But back to this false assumption that this guy is interested in me because he bought breakfast for me only. Where does the assumption come up in the first place? My guess is that I have been single for the longest time ever (i.e. never had a boyfriend) and I have long accepted the fact that well, maybe the time is not right for me for someone to take interest in my life unless I do something about it by being more..er..interesting or at least have a wider social circle where I can mingle with other people. 

While to other single people, this can be so frustrating when they keep getting bombarded with questions of when they will get a boyfriend, get married, have children blah blah blah...basically because these people have nothing else to ask, some single people like me just chill and perform daily tasks as per normal. In fact, too normal. But now we are so connected thanks to the advancement of technology that you can find ready people to chat or become fast friends with. In the past, people may raise an eyebrow when you say oh, you met so and so in the internet but now, people are happy for you. Yes, there are sceptics most definitely, but basically you follow your heart's desire. However, this doesn't mean you should let your guard down. 

When such things happen, I feel different like eh, something is not right like I am in this phase of denial where I thought to myself, that narh...this couldn't have happened to me. I don't deserve such attention and what is so special about me. But I just have to accept the fact that when other people may see something special in me that I just can't see because I am so used to doing what I have been doing like a fixed routine.

I must admit, it sure feel good to be appreciated even if it turns out to be just that, a small gesture of appreciation rather than interest. Whatever it is, while my mind keeps saying ah, he's just being appreciative but like I said, if you're a single girl who doesn't have guys basically trying to sweep you off your feet that often or when you don't think highly of yourself, such glimmer of hope does exist. It's just natural like a natural reflex.

So okay, I'm moving the crowd along :) Nothing to see here peeps!  No, not my blog post but rather my love life...haha...







I make cards..help support me! http://www.facebook.com/mylittlecardshop

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

One Step at A Time

Hello there It has been a while, right? I used to treat this blog as a place for me to rant, talk about nonsensical things and interests that, when I think back about it, were pretty cringeworthy. But it was part of the process of me growing up and navigating through my life which is full of ups and downs, just like the tidal waves. I still need a form of outlet to write out my thoughts and I have been journaling for the last few years. At first, I was still writing nonsense, or simply writing about how my day went, but I try to make it a more conscious journalling where I will write about things that I can take lessons from or to reflect on. So how has life been for me? Well, I no longer am running an online shop where I used to do customised cards and then just specializing in box cards. I do want to have an online business, preferably one I don't have to travel to meet people.  If you read my last post about being zen, I think I have 'tripled' the amount of zen inside of...

Listen to Me

It kinda irks me when I am trying to express an opinion or sharing a piece of knowledge but it's met with strong objection or Im being cut half way before I even finished. I mean...come on...does it hurt to actually listen first, doesnt matter if u agree or not? Yes I know everyone is entitled to their own opinions but it's frustrating because I feel like a sore loser. That sort of conversation is actually begging to be turned into some huge argument if I am equally annoying and equally strong headed as well. But I dont want to do that especially if they are my friends. Then again, I am subjected to being called a wimp or somebody who cant stand up strong against what she believes in or her own opinions. That will sorta give the person a sense of pride for getting a landslide victory. At first I used to think that hey, maybe the person has a point and I am wrong. But come to think of it, that's bull! It's one thing not to argue and another thing to let ur own opinions b...

Not Gone from Good

Life hasn't been good lately especially in the last two weeks. The latest news is that it seems that almost everyone has an increase in their pay due to changes in the civil servant wage scale and very unfortunately, my group didn't get it. So my boss, whose post is that of a manager and the operations manager, have quite a significant salary rise.  I heard she got a 10% pay rise. 10%!!! look, even the attendants got a pay rise. What we got? nada! zilch! Why? Because apparently our salary is of a competitive range. Sigh, such is the unfairness of life. I'm already struggling as it is and then apparently now, the rich has become richer. The poor remains nothing but a destitute mess. So I guess the only chance for a pay rise is for me to be promoted and though I do not know how much pay rise will that be, at least it is going to be slightly better. The problem is that I have no clue when I will get promoted. I am not one of those people with many super ideas that will great...