"Isn't life funnie at times?"
nothing seems so special these days..life has been prettie much on a standstill. but what am i supposed to do..i jz have to grin and pretend that it will be over later. sometimes one can't complain so much about the current situation they are facing..like amidst boredom...they can always find things to do..but if one has practised the art of procrastination like way too long..(ahem..a.k.a. me..), sometimes it is difficult. but when I read the newspapers, stories regarding the hardship people are going through because they're too poor to make ends meet, i think that I am fortunate in many ways. like my job, i can complain whole day about people's misconception that our job is damn easie..all we need to do is just screen the children, print out the health records and thats it..the entire day is just about walking aimlessly round the shopping centre after lunch as we don't want to go back to office too earlie. but though it's boring, there were times when I thought what would i become if i were to ever lose this job and then i won't be able to have money to pay my bills, help settle the utilities bill etc...and it's actuallie things like this that make you think that hey, you cannot complain too much over things. it's sometimes nice to look at the positive things than always having negative ones coz reallie...what sucks more? having a job that pays you prettie well or being jobless? sure you can't jz stick to the same thing all the time coz you're not going too far in terms of creativity, talent and etc...but at times like this, when you have tried changing your course of jobs but have been unsuccessful so far, at least you have something to fall upon. i say just lift your head up and count your blessings that you are still able to put food on the table and money to get around. some things will get better eventually when you try your best. like my friend who has been trying for a few years to get herself a good education in a local U and she believes in herself. she believes that she can get into the local U and she is damn determined. and guess what? she got in recently and would be starting next month. for me, I still wish to become a teacher one day and i will definitely try my best again though I have experienced rejection. you see, the thing about rejection is that it can either make you stronger or weaker. it's just dependent on how well you take it. i mean..of course..who would be rejoicing over rejection in the first place? like a guy who faced rejection from a girl. he may either think that he's not good enough for her or anyone and therefore would onlie wait for a girl to ask him instead. or, he'll turn gay. I dunno...it's reallie up to you sometimes to change the course of ur job..ur life....and how little things like rejection can cause some ripples in ur usually calm water. but if that guy takes up this opportunity to look at things from a bird's eye view, see what went wrong and if he has anything to do with it, then he can damn well focus on the things that made him being rejected in the first place. but if it's just over some silly excuse that the girl just likes guys with $$ spewing out of his pockets, then is it worth burning a hole over a girl who onlie look at a guy's dollar value for her shopping pleasures? you can't be at the beck and call of people. take strong hold of ur life and believe me, one day you can start thinking that you can reach practically anything.
for me, I have always believed that one can't have too many shoes and I carry that thought in me for the past two years throughout my working life. Ever since I experienced hardship like not even having money to pay for my bus fares to work, the little things that as long as i have a good pair of shoes to wear to work, then it's good enough. so i always resort to wearing my pair of shoes until it's either beyond recoginition or it gave way that i can't be wearing broken shoes to work, can i? then, i'll have no choice but to pop down to a fav brand of mine for a new pair. but recently, I have turned weak. Weak, in the sense that after buying a pair of shoes, to replace th current old pair, I have this 'itch' to buy more and more. okay, for once, i didn't think of my job nature and got the one with small heels. as my job requires a lot of walking..didn't think that it was practical enough. so after a short while, i got another pair..it was a pair of 'flats' that i could just strut around without feeling the pain of walking long distance.
then it got me. i got some spare cash, which I would usually just keep, i just have this 'dying' desire to buy more and more. this time, for the sake of vanity. also because i wanted to keep up with my colleagues who are around my age and they are fashionable in all sense. i didn't want to be the one always wearing the same pair and i dunno why, it was onlie recently that i started to feel that way. so yes, i got another pair..it was the kind that my present team mate also liked and she bought a different colour but we got it at the same time. okay...as if that was enough, i still had yet another desire to get another pair. it kinda shocked my team mate who would usually see me in or two kinds of designs as they're all i had. it's like..what happened to the one who is the most budget conscious among the rest of them? clothes..don't say either. after getting one new blouse...i wanted to get more and more. i just felt the prices are just too rite and i should get them. not getting them would be unethical coz they're already so cheap. i dunno if it's one of the side effects of the great singapore sale. the prices can be so crazy that you just gotta have the item.
i even bought a pair of black pants which i had no confidence i could fit coz the waist is a bit too small but i got it anyway. why? coz it's onlie 5 bucks. you can't go wrong with that price! oh yeah..shoes? i got the second pair at 19.90 which is less than twenty bucks and this is a prettie well-known brand. you can't get shoes at that price at another time except during the great singapore sale! so one pair is definitely not enough.
it's this kind of mentality that i have been harbouring until i kinda 'woke' up after reading the papers for the past few days. people facing poverty as they cant find jobs and onlie had each other to rely on. when one of them died, they are now living in the world alone..and can u imagine the hundreds of others of the same plight in singapore, that they are dependent on the welfare of others just to keep going? where else...for me..i have a job..i have a family..i have a house..cable tv to watch....internet to surf.....things considered luxury to them? for them, it's about living one day at a time. then doing things lucky people like you and me wouldn't do like rummaging through people's rubbish to look for recycable things that they can sell off for 5 or 10 cents per item? still, some of these people don't like people to take pity upon them. to them, so what if they are so poor...as long as they find income on their own..find food on their own..they don't wish to be supported by well wishers. though the well wishers onlie have good intentions, they have built upon them a very tough exterior, possibly from years of having to fend for themselves and if all this while, they can do it, they dont need help from others coz that would onlie mean they are helpless. it's reallie hard to penetrate such deep personal beliefs even though all they would be getting is some help.
for us, we can onlie applaud them. and then we, though our life is much better than them, we complain over every slightest thing. and then keep on buying new things where else we just bought similar things that we have used just a little while or not even used at all. it's not that i am encouraging us all to become hermits. perhaps give a thought. do we reallie need to buy again and again jz coz the prices are dirt cheap? sure, it's sale alrite..and it doesn't come often. but are we so weak towards the sale that you have to adopt this 'i wanna have more and more' attitude? i think having three new pair of shoes are good enough and ahem..more than 5 different kinds of tops are prettie enough alreadie in the span of two weeks onlie. hey, we don't have to think so far like wanting to climb mount everest one day. we can firstly think positive and then secondly, practise self-control. like trust me, if you buy ten items, but u are just gonna use like half or even less than that then forget its existence, u may have not spent wisely. doesn't mean u're buying during the sales that u're suddenly budget-wise.
i think...maybe we should just sit down..and reflect upon our actions. like i always complain that my mum is always asking me to go out and get food etc.....sometimes up to 3 times a day...then i tot again. i'm the onlie one she can rely on so it's onlie natural she asked me. then some more, she's not feeling well these past few days. i can't expect her to go out and get food when she's still sick, do i? i believe that if you do good things for others, others will do it back at ya. try it! it's always good to think positive over things..turn ur frown upside down gals and boys!
for me, I have always believed that one can't have too many shoes and I carry that thought in me for the past two years throughout my working life. Ever since I experienced hardship like not even having money to pay for my bus fares to work, the little things that as long as i have a good pair of shoes to wear to work, then it's good enough. so i always resort to wearing my pair of shoes until it's either beyond recoginition or it gave way that i can't be wearing broken shoes to work, can i? then, i'll have no choice but to pop down to a fav brand of mine for a new pair. but recently, I have turned weak. Weak, in the sense that after buying a pair of shoes, to replace th current old pair, I have this 'itch' to buy more and more. okay, for once, i didn't think of my job nature and got the one with small heels. as my job requires a lot of walking..didn't think that it was practical enough. so after a short while, i got another pair..it was a pair of 'flats' that i could just strut around without feeling the pain of walking long distance.
then it got me. i got some spare cash, which I would usually just keep, i just have this 'dying' desire to buy more and more. this time, for the sake of vanity. also because i wanted to keep up with my colleagues who are around my age and they are fashionable in all sense. i didn't want to be the one always wearing the same pair and i dunno why, it was onlie recently that i started to feel that way. so yes, i got another pair..it was the kind that my present team mate also liked and she bought a different colour but we got it at the same time. okay...as if that was enough, i still had yet another desire to get another pair. it kinda shocked my team mate who would usually see me in or two kinds of designs as they're all i had. it's like..what happened to the one who is the most budget conscious among the rest of them? clothes..don't say either. after getting one new blouse...i wanted to get more and more. i just felt the prices are just too rite and i should get them. not getting them would be unethical coz they're already so cheap. i dunno if it's one of the side effects of the great singapore sale. the prices can be so crazy that you just gotta have the item.
i even bought a pair of black pants which i had no confidence i could fit coz the waist is a bit too small but i got it anyway. why? coz it's onlie 5 bucks. you can't go wrong with that price! oh yeah..shoes? i got the second pair at 19.90 which is less than twenty bucks and this is a prettie well-known brand. you can't get shoes at that price at another time except during the great singapore sale! so one pair is definitely not enough.
it's this kind of mentality that i have been harbouring until i kinda 'woke' up after reading the papers for the past few days. people facing poverty as they cant find jobs and onlie had each other to rely on. when one of them died, they are now living in the world alone..and can u imagine the hundreds of others of the same plight in singapore, that they are dependent on the welfare of others just to keep going? where else...for me..i have a job..i have a family..i have a house..cable tv to watch....internet to surf.....things considered luxury to them? for them, it's about living one day at a time. then doing things lucky people like you and me wouldn't do like rummaging through people's rubbish to look for recycable things that they can sell off for 5 or 10 cents per item? still, some of these people don't like people to take pity upon them. to them, so what if they are so poor...as long as they find income on their own..find food on their own..they don't wish to be supported by well wishers. though the well wishers onlie have good intentions, they have built upon them a very tough exterior, possibly from years of having to fend for themselves and if all this while, they can do it, they dont need help from others coz that would onlie mean they are helpless. it's reallie hard to penetrate such deep personal beliefs even though all they would be getting is some help.
for us, we can onlie applaud them. and then we, though our life is much better than them, we complain over every slightest thing. and then keep on buying new things where else we just bought similar things that we have used just a little while or not even used at all. it's not that i am encouraging us all to become hermits. perhaps give a thought. do we reallie need to buy again and again jz coz the prices are dirt cheap? sure, it's sale alrite..and it doesn't come often. but are we so weak towards the sale that you have to adopt this 'i wanna have more and more' attitude? i think having three new pair of shoes are good enough and ahem..more than 5 different kinds of tops are prettie enough alreadie in the span of two weeks onlie. hey, we don't have to think so far like wanting to climb mount everest one day. we can firstly think positive and then secondly, practise self-control. like trust me, if you buy ten items, but u are just gonna use like half or even less than that then forget its existence, u may have not spent wisely. doesn't mean u're buying during the sales that u're suddenly budget-wise.
i think...maybe we should just sit down..and reflect upon our actions. like i always complain that my mum is always asking me to go out and get food etc.....sometimes up to 3 times a day...then i tot again. i'm the onlie one she can rely on so it's onlie natural she asked me. then some more, she's not feeling well these past few days. i can't expect her to go out and get food when she's still sick, do i? i believe that if you do good things for others, others will do it back at ya. try it! it's always good to think positive over things..turn ur frown upside down gals and boys!
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