"Living Each Single Day"

I've been slacking and I'm not proud of it. Life has so much to offer and yet I just prefer to snooze, lol. I haven't been writing in my journal because I finished the last one and forgot to buy a new one when I was at the shopping centre where the shop was located. Many shops close earlier than the usual 9.30 or 10.00pm timing because of the virus going on here so people go out less. But I dunno, the malls still don't seem too empty because we Singaporeans still can't live without our food and shopping, haha. So when I don't write, I feel like I lost a bit of direction in life. I mean it's not a guarantee life will suddenly improve if I write because there are times when I still kinda fall back to the bad habit. It's just that at least I have the time to reflect while writing so that gives me some perspectives in life, rather than have my mind clouded with so many thoughts. Recently, I have been following a few Malay Muslim ladies online and they...

In my previous post, I was writing about me grappling about loneliness and to be completely honest, it didn't quite go away and sorta got amplified instead when I started watching this Taiwanese drama. I was curious about how these two characters, who ran into each other through some weird situation where one was being chased by the baddies. But the second episode showed that they could be related where they  have the same father and that he was the long lost sibling. I highly doubt that I would run into some random handsome Korean Oppa who knocked into me in the midst of being chased, lol. Anyway, the actors playing them, including the token Korean guy, were all good looking and it's probably a click bait for greedy viewers like me. But you know what, that is the world of fantasy, where we imagine it to be perfect at least in our minds and these dramas act out our fantasy of being swept by a good looking hunky kind of guy. No? It's just me? Ok moving on. One writer...

Last weekend, I felt a pang of loneliness. I don't know what overcame me but I didn't really feel good about myself. Is it because I suddenly crave for attention or that people have not been paying attention to me that I felt lonely. I never had a problem with being single or without companionship but about that time last weekend, I somehow felt that sense of emptiness in me. I know I used to feel as though there truly is something wrong with me that I don't get attention from guys. But I have overcome that and chose to do things that matter to me and just lead life as per normal. However that weekend, the emptiness sank in hard. Days have passed ever since then and I just live day by day. Some days aren't perfect and smooth sailing while some were pretty alright. I chose instead to focus on making this day better than it was yesterday and to be grateful to be given another day to live. On the topic of loneliness, I watched a drama recently which honestly, I had...