I give up. The weighing scale hasn't been giving me the number that I want. It still shows that I have put on weight. But I don't get it. Ok fine, I acknowledged I ate more than I should the last couple of months but I have been a good girl and been following through with my exercise routines and eat lesser. So where did I go wrong?!!
Honestly, at first I felt like such a quack like it's so obvious I put on weight when my current clothes seemed tighter. But now, for the last two weeks, I seriously thought that I might have lost the extra weight and my clothes seemed better fitting. But the scale this afternoon. Still showed no change. Infact, it showed more! What the hell!
So that is why, I have given up. Of course I still wish that I was back at the weight that I was previously after I made going to the gym as part of my life to get fit and healthy. I'm not going to retaliate and eat even more since there won't be any difference if I eat less, anyway.
I actually secretly hope that it's because of my added routine of strength training, in which I now train with a pair of 1kg dumbbells, in the hope of getting leaner muscles to replace the fatty arms. I must say, that the arms are looking leaner, but I don't know if the so called leaner muscles are responsible for my weight gain.
I also hope that with this newly developed muscles, heh, it will help me to lose weight even more in future as basically, the more muscles you have, the more fats you burn when you exercise. My energy levels have certainly increased coz usually half way through the ten minute mark, which may already seemed forever to get to when I'm on the treadmill, I would be so tempted to stop. But I did not. I keep the same fast memento going and even had the energy to go super fast in the very last minute. That had not happened before. Just now, if I wasn't pressed for time since I was meeting up with ex schoolmates for a baby visit, I would even do more as I didn't feel too lethargic.
So that is what I am just going to do. I am going to so called abandon the weighing scale for awhile and just do what I can to be fitter and healthier.
By the way, an added benefit of exercising, even going for long walks, is that your skin will look better. I realized that nowadays my face looked kinda different, like I'm..er...prettier :S. Now I am not one to self praise myself not because I don't think I deserve it but I just like to keep it grounded. But I can't deny that I look rather different. So far, I haven't got anyone suddenly interested to be friends with me outside, haha, so maybe it's just me. I don't think it's the make up coz I hardly wear heavy make up. I just wear moisturizer, a baby compact powder, concealer for my blemishes and a cheap Chinese face powder, which is like a hardened talcum powder to keep my oily face matte looking.
So it could also be the food that I eat. Sometimes, my mum packs lunch for me such as wholemeal avocado and low fat cheese sandwich. I also keep to a a healthy lunch such as eating wholemeal bread with nutella or peanut butter spread with reduced fats cream cheese. They're yummy, by the way. I will eat oatmeal biscuits too with my milo. For snacks, I will eat dark chocolates and drink cold water to keep the hunger at bay.
Whenever they ask if I want to order lunch, my usual answer is no. Of course I may say no at times but somehow they will still buy for me though most times I bring home and share with my mum or my family, even if it's just one packet.
So tell me, if the weighing scale is telling me a big lie? Maybe. But whatever it is, I don't want to depend on it so much. Of course one day I hope to reduce my weight to a healthier range. For now, I just want to live well and be healthy always.
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Honestly, at first I felt like such a quack like it's so obvious I put on weight when my current clothes seemed tighter. But now, for the last two weeks, I seriously thought that I might have lost the extra weight and my clothes seemed better fitting. But the scale this afternoon. Still showed no change. Infact, it showed more! What the hell!
So that is why, I have given up. Of course I still wish that I was back at the weight that I was previously after I made going to the gym as part of my life to get fit and healthy. I'm not going to retaliate and eat even more since there won't be any difference if I eat less, anyway.
I actually secretly hope that it's because of my added routine of strength training, in which I now train with a pair of 1kg dumbbells, in the hope of getting leaner muscles to replace the fatty arms. I must say, that the arms are looking leaner, but I don't know if the so called leaner muscles are responsible for my weight gain.
I also hope that with this newly developed muscles, heh, it will help me to lose weight even more in future as basically, the more muscles you have, the more fats you burn when you exercise. My energy levels have certainly increased coz usually half way through the ten minute mark, which may already seemed forever to get to when I'm on the treadmill, I would be so tempted to stop. But I did not. I keep the same fast memento going and even had the energy to go super fast in the very last minute. That had not happened before. Just now, if I wasn't pressed for time since I was meeting up with ex schoolmates for a baby visit, I would even do more as I didn't feel too lethargic.
So that is what I am just going to do. I am going to so called abandon the weighing scale for awhile and just do what I can to be fitter and healthier.
By the way, an added benefit of exercising, even going for long walks, is that your skin will look better. I realized that nowadays my face looked kinda different, like I'm..er...prettier :S. Now I am not one to self praise myself not because I don't think I deserve it but I just like to keep it grounded. But I can't deny that I look rather different. So far, I haven't got anyone suddenly interested to be friends with me outside, haha, so maybe it's just me. I don't think it's the make up coz I hardly wear heavy make up. I just wear moisturizer, a baby compact powder, concealer for my blemishes and a cheap Chinese face powder, which is like a hardened talcum powder to keep my oily face matte looking.
So it could also be the food that I eat. Sometimes, my mum packs lunch for me such as wholemeal avocado and low fat cheese sandwich. I also keep to a a healthy lunch such as eating wholemeal bread with nutella or peanut butter spread with reduced fats cream cheese. They're yummy, by the way. I will eat oatmeal biscuits too with my milo. For snacks, I will eat dark chocolates and drink cold water to keep the hunger at bay.
Whenever they ask if I want to order lunch, my usual answer is no. Of course I may say no at times but somehow they will still buy for me though most times I bring home and share with my mum or my family, even if it's just one packet.
So tell me, if the weighing scale is telling me a big lie? Maybe. But whatever it is, I don't want to depend on it so much. Of course one day I hope to reduce my weight to a healthier range. For now, I just want to live well and be healthy always.
follow me at http://twitter.com/rahayupopz
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