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Okay I admit it. I had not reallie watched the movie Brokeback Mountain when I first wrote entries on it except for snippets on the internet although I did read the book. But you know how hollywood works....the movies are always an extension of any original stories and often they are rather fabricated and the leading actors or actresses are usually the ones with the good genes. Okay okay..before anyone throws stones at me for calling Jake Gyllenhaal to be 'not that handsome'...he is lah and im not kidding. But only at certain angles..bwahahaha!! And you think I'll give in easily.


Oh where was i....okay so I finallie watched the movie today though the ending which I wrote in my previous post, was more based on the book and the reviews on the internet. So, there were definitely hiccups like if I ever wrongly misinterpret the storyline. However, I still stand firm on some of the viewpoints I shared in regards to their relationship like them getting acquainted with each other emotionally and physically. They were definitely the highlights of the movie and even if you may grimace a bit in your seat seeing two guys making out, you can't deny that they were clearly in love. So freakin' touching! After the movie, which I did shed a few tears....it did end off on a melodramatic note though clearly it wasn't 100% what the original prose had meant it to be. But I would say that it was a rather....emotional yet comforting ending. Sure, Jack died in an accident on a lonely road...and Ennis didn't get to see him for the last time but to find out the news through a returned postcard marked 'deceased'. Well, whatever it was....it kinda broked the monotony experienced midway through the movie as it moved down the timeline of twenty years since they first met. Sure, there were heartwrenching moments like even almost twenty years, they still could not draw a conclusion to their relationship. Both of them had different viewpoints which resulted in anger and frustration and finger pointing at each other for not knowing how one felt during the long absence. But clearly, they suffered and despite their differing views, they knew they had no place in society....as they broke down and cry while contemplating on their fate.


Although it was a love story with a tragic ending, I wouldn't think that it was tragic after all...if you were to see it in a different light. Sure, their love for each other was only left with memories after Jack's death...but after much thought, I thought that nature, which got them in the fix in the first place, got them out of it too. Wherever Jack was now, he wouldn't suffer anymore. Maybe his early death was a good thing...despite how morbid that sounded. Jack's real family did feel heartwrenched especially his dad of whom Jack couldn't get along in the first place. To know that his dad would like part of his ashes buried in the family plot showed that Jack still had a place in his heart. Jack had also intended that if he ever died, he wanted to be cremated and half his ashes to be scattered along brokeback mountain although his family members including his wife did know where the heck it was.


The movie also ended on a note that Ennis, even though distraught over his death, and his impending loneliness, he wasn't quite alone after all. His daughter of whom were made known to us that she was aware of her dad's sexuality conduct but not necessarily the other way round, did not ostracize her father. She wanted to stay with him and not with the new family after her mum's remarriage. But Ennis probably did not want her to be in his lonesome world and that her new family would give her happiness that he was not able to provide in the first place. It was comforting to know that his daughter still paid him visits and even told him of the good news that she was going to get married. Perhaps to Ennis, he was glad that at least his daughter would have a good life ahead of hers despite what she had gone through as a child with her parents' divorce. For Ennis, we wouldn't know how he would cope along without Jack but the jacket Jack wore during their Brokeback period, hung lovingly on the inside of his cupboard. It was definitely emotional as Ennis teared up as he gazed upon the jacket and a picture of the mountain. But maybe....just maybe......Jack would live through his memories while Ennis no longer had to struggle with the secret. Still, it draws us to ponder on whether this is ever the ending for Ennis as I do not think his sexuality will change overnight or that anyone else behind a forbidden love like them are ever going to have a happy ending. Just look at the present times....and tell me if it has ever changed.

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