"Living Each Single Day"

Photo by  Markus Spiske  from  Pexels Hi all, It's disheartening that at this moment, we are in a very challenging period and we're barely even finished with the first quarter of 2020. At first we felt that we would be in control of the situation and there were just a few countries affected, mainly the ASEAN countries, and China being the epicentre, and then it started to become a worldwide situation. Now the Covid-19 outbreak has been declared by WHO as a pandemic as death tolls increase in a matter of short time, affecting faraway countries from China such as US and Europe. Previously governments who had taken the matter lightly thinking that their countries are safe since China is so far, when the virus travelled across the world through social contacts and imported cases, they know this is a very serious matter and drastic measures had to be in place that the citizens have to comply. Travel borders have to be closed and only allowing own citizens to come back b...

I have been listening to podcasts recently because I feel that it’s less distracting when I am doing work and I am  pressed for time. I can focus more as there is nothing visual in front of me as distraction. So my eyes will be on the work I am doing. At the same time, I get to learn things and hear about other people’s life experiences where you typically don’t get to hear due to the sensitivity of the issues at hand such as divorce and cheating. Although I can’t relate but it doesn’t mean that I don’t get to learn from them. I learnt from how they deal with it when life threw them a curveball just when you thought all things were fine and dandy. It is not an easy feat and it can already be a few years since it happened but the pain is forever. Yes it can be buried deep inside ourselves as we slowly pick ourselves up slowly and though it can never be like before, the happiness that we once felt, it doesn’t mean that our life will come to a standstill. So these people are s...

I am currently obsessed with this independent Japanese movie based on a Manga comic which I watched on youtube. I just loved the storyline and how it played out throughout the movie and I liked every character including the minor ones. The literal translation of the movie name is Does The Flower Bloom. It started the movie with a tall young guy who was sitting down painting away in a typical Japanese room setting. Then it panned out to another younger guy who came into the room telling the young man that food was ready.  In Japan culture, they address special salutations or by their surname. The younger one tried to make a guess of what he was drawing but he barely spoke except to say that he would be coming soon. At the same time, there was a group of people outside the house taking photos and one of them came in to look for the owner of the big house, without knowing that the young man was actually the owner. But of course, he looked like some student who could not hav...

I've been slacking and I'm not proud of it. Life has so much to offer and yet I just prefer to snooze, lol. I haven't been writing in my journal because I finished the last one and forgot to buy a new one when I was at the shopping centre where the shop was located. Many shops close earlier than the usual 9.30 or 10.00pm timing because of the virus going on here so people go out less. But I dunno, the malls still don't seem too empty because we Singaporeans still can't live without our food and shopping, haha. So when I don't write, I feel like I lost a bit of direction in life. I mean it's not a guarantee life will suddenly improve if I write because there are times when I still kinda fall back to the bad habit. It's just that at least I have the time to reflect while writing so that gives me some perspectives in life, rather than have my mind clouded with so many thoughts. Recently, I have been following a few Malay Muslim ladies online and they...

In my previous post, I was writing about me grappling about loneliness and to be completely honest, it didn't quite go away and sorta got amplified instead when I started watching this Taiwanese drama. I was curious about how these two characters, who ran into each other through some weird situation where one was being chased by the baddies. But the second episode showed that they could be related where they  have the same father and that he was the long lost sibling. I highly doubt that I would run into some random handsome Korean Oppa who knocked into me in the midst of being chased, lol. Anyway, the actors playing them, including the token Korean guy, were all good looking and it's probably a click bait for greedy viewers like me. But you know what, that is the world of fantasy, where we imagine it to be perfect at least in our minds and these dramas act out our fantasy of being swept by a good looking hunky kind of guy. No? It's just me? Ok moving on. One writer...

Last weekend, I felt a pang of loneliness. I don't know what overcame me but I didn't really feel good about myself. Is it because I suddenly crave for attention or that people have not been paying attention to me that I felt lonely. I never had a problem with being single or without companionship but about that time last weekend, I somehow felt that sense of emptiness in me. I know I used to feel as though there truly is something wrong with me that I don't get attention from guys. But I have overcome that and chose to do things that matter to me and just lead life as per normal. However that weekend, the emptiness sank in hard. Days have passed ever since then and I just live day by day. Some days aren't perfect and smooth sailing while some were pretty alright. I chose instead to focus on making this day better than it was yesterday and to be grateful to be given another day to live. On the topic of loneliness, I watched a drama recently which honestly, I had...

Hi Im back! Actually I want to start writing regularly but the year didn't start off well for me. Sometimes I find that I am falling down the rabbit hole but I am slowly trying to find my way out of it. I had a small bout with a nasty cough. Ok actually, it was pretty bad because I lost my voice at one time, lol. I could barely speak and if I could, it would come out super hoarse.  I realise that I haven't taken much action in my life, like as though all those 'goals and aspirations' just flew out of the window barely two weeks into January. When I had to move on to the next checkpoint to learn more new Spanish words and sentences, there was a test to be done that would not tell you the score, whether you are right or wrong, but it would determine if you get to move on to the next stage. It was hard. I could barely answer the first few questions and I wanted to give up. It was like I knew those words and phrases but I just couldn't make them out. Because I ...